Too Many Doses And I'm Starting To Get An Attraction

R.E - Aii: Explain why there is a need for world development.

 World development is an effort to improve the world's economic and social position of the world.

 Many countries in the world are poor for a number of reasons. Some of these reasons are war, natural disasters and the issue of having clean water. The way that natural disasters affect poor countries is because it is more devastating for the countries which are poor because they wont have the money to restore the damage and if they borrow the money from other countries which are rich they will probably be only be able to pay of the interest of the money they owe, resulting in them going into even more debt. The way that war affects a countries economic position is because after a war the land that the country originally owned has been taken over by another country which is richer so then they will have to buy back the plot of land which they wont be able to afford. And the way that the issue of clean water affects poorer countries is because there is no clean water resulting in diseases and illnesses which will push the need and cost for medical services up; in the world there are about 1.4 billion people who don't have access to clean water.

 Some of the reasons why world needs world development is because of the United Nations Declaration, this is the human rights act. Within this document it states "everyone has the right to a standard of living adequate for the health and well-being of himself and his family, including food, clothing, housing and medical care and necessary social services". This is stating that it is a basic human right to have a suitable standard of living.

 Another reason is the issue of the poorer countries getting ripped off by the richer countries with the products that they make. A reason why the workers in the poorer countries should get a fair amount of money for their good is because this will lift their standard of living and will be a step closer to ending world poverty.

 One more reason why there is a need for world development is that the planet can be seen as a "global village" meaning that we are all one big community and if one country is effected by poverty it will have a knock on effect with the countries which are richer, also the countries that are poor should be able to get help from the more richer countries seen as that's what a community does.

The Art of Subconscious Illusion

Waking up the vampire slowly rose out of her bed after being woken by her human tenant. A low growl formed in her throat. Opening the room door she saw him grinning innocently. This instantly put her in a good mood. She brushed past him and went downstairs into the kitchen and started to make what was to her breakfast to make her look human. The food that she made tasted bland. All she wanted was blood. The tenant came bounding down the stairs like a five year old when it's Christmas eager to open the presents that have been laid under the Christmas tree. Jumping next to her he changed the channel on the TV. Slowly she breathed in his candy like sent. Temptation started to take over her body like a fire inside her. She could bite him within a second, taste his sweet blood and he wouldn't be able to stop her. Digging her nails into her arm trying to stop the temptation only made her lust for blood become more alive and thrive more inside. The time was coming to where she knew that she wouldn't be able to control herself.

 Quickly she rushed out of the door before she could harm the tenant she cared so much about (who was left confused). It wasn't long until she laid her hands on a victim. The vampire couldn't help but let a smile spread across her face as the human tried to get away in a frenzied panic. Suddenly the vampire disappeared. The victim ran only stopping when the vampire appeared in front of him. Before the human knew what was happening, she sank her fangs deep into his neck and started to drink. The blood flowed into her mouth and trickled down her throat. A warm sensation developed in her stomach as she drank. The human's life was slowly slipping away from him as she drank. The heart beat slowed and gradually stopped, the vampire dropped him like a sack of rocks.

 Walking through the door she was greeted by her tenant smiling. When he approached her he wrapped his arms gently around her forming a hug while pulling her into him slightly. Gently she rested her head on his chest. Guilt started to take over her mind. "He deserved to live" she kept thinking. Reaching up she gripped his top. Instantly he knew something was playing on her mind, knowing her as he did, he knew that she wouldn't tell him. While holding her he gently rested his chin on the top of her head and ran his fingers through her soft long hair. Heavily she sighed. She longed for the heartbeat that she once had, not to be her own enemy and to be able to be with the man she loved. Being in love with a human meant that if a vampire found out she would be condemned to hell and the one she loved would be  tortured without and mercy right in front of her eyes. But what she didn't know was that one of the most feared gangs of vampires knew about her and wants to make her pay for the wrongs she has done in the past.

 "Sorry love but I have to meet up with the guys for band practise." Simply she nodded and slowly pulled away from him.

 The vampire waited a few minutes before she took to the roof tops to follow him and make sure he gets to his destination safely.

 It wasn't long till a vampire was hot on his heels. Swiftly she jumped down and landed on her feet like a cat in front of the other vampire. Matthew, the tenant heard and turned round to see what the commotion was. Both vampires had a defensive posture, before Matthew could blink twice they wee both fighting. As he approached the two fighting vampires another vampire grabbed him from behind and quickly sank his fangs into Matthew's neck. Struggling Matthew became dizzy as everything around him started to blur. Jade quickly killed the vampire she was fighting and ran over to Matthew. Looking up she saw the vampire who bit him standing there grinning at her. Dropping Matthew the vampire flitted into the night sky. Catching him, Jade saw Matthew's eyes slowly close. He'd already given up the fight and was ready to let death take him.

 Soon she was rushing through the hospital doors screaming for somebody to save him. Hours passed while she waited for Matthew to come round. Even though she was outside the room which he was she could still hear his heartbeat, but this only calmed her down a bit. Stepping out the doctor nodded at Jade to let her know that she could see him. Sighing with relief she rose out of the chair and went into the room. When she saw Matthew lying on the hospital bed she instantly felt that there was a lump in her throat. If she could cry she would be crying her eyes out by now but with her being half dead this wasn't possible. Holding his hand she felt his fingers slowly close round her hand. When her eyes landed on his perfect face she saw that he was looking at her with a questioning look. She knew what he was thinking and knew that she wouldn't be able to disguise what she was any longer. Drawing his hand away from hers he rubbed his neck where he had been bit and winced slightly.

 "Have they given you any painkillers?" He shook his head. Reaching over him Jade pressed the nurse button and waited for a nurse to arrive. While they were waiting there was absolute silence between them. When Matthew took the painkillers he laid back and looked at Jade trying to figure out why he had been bitten in the neck. He couldn't come up with anything that made sense to him.

 "There's something weird going on and I need to know." Matthew said breaking the silence. There was a long awkward silence before Jade answered.

 "I know you do but I don't know where to start."

 "How about the beginning?"

 "That still doesn't help me out." She said looking him in the eyes.

 "That helps. Ok then; why did that guy bite me?" Again there was a silence before jade spoke.

 "He's a vampire; I don't think I need to explain any more." Matthew looked at her with a strange expression on his face, pondering whether she was actually telling the truth or making it all up.

 "There's no such thing." He scoffed.

 "There is Matthew, there really is." Jade said with a serious expression. The room started to fill with the sound of laughter from Matthew until he saw that she was still being serious.

 "Come on Jade stop messing me about."

 "Matthew I'm really not messing about, they are real." She insisted. He took a while to think about the different come backs he could say.

 "If they are real then prove it to me."

The night progressed into the early hours of the morning. Everyone was drunk apart from me and Matthew was tipsy. Matthew seemed to have disappeared. Making my way to the kitchen I saw Deuce making out with some girl. Instantly my heart shattered. I couldn't stand being in the crowded house anymore. It seemed that the more I wanted to get out the more people got in my way. Finally I got out and started to make my way down the garden path.

 "Where are you going?" A familiar voice asked, I turned on my heel and saw that it was Matthew who asked.

 "Yeah, just needed some fresh air." I said lying through the skin of my teeth. I knew from the moment the words passed my lips he would be able to tell that I was lying. He can read me like a book. Simply he shrugged and opened his arms.

 "Hug?"

 "No thanks"

 "Are you sure?" His arms were still open. At first I hesitated but I ended up going into his arms that looked extremely inviting. Wrapping his arms around me he pulled me closer into his chest. Breathing in I took in his sent which was slightly tainted by alcohol. Gently his thumb rubbed against my arm causing a small smile to develop on my lips.

 "So are you going to tell me what's troubling you?" He asked after a while of silence between us.

 "It doesn't matter; it's just me being stupid"

 "Fine, if you say so" He knew that my mind was made up and I wasn't going to tell him. With my head still resting my head on his chest I listened to his heartbeat.

 "Do you want to spend the rest of the night at mine? We can make it like old times."

 "I'd love to" We made our way to his house. I hadn't visited his house seen as I've been helping Hollywood Undead with their album which has been taking up a lot of my time.

 Matthew turned on his heel to face me.

"So what did we used to do first?" I thought for a minute about what we used to do when he invited me over for sleepovers.

  "Drive you mum insane with the amount of talking we did" He chuckled slightly, I could tell from the expression that had formed on his face that he was thinking back, a slight smile was touching the edge of his lips. We talked for what seemed hours in the living room; I had a rant about how much Hollywood Undead were driving me up the wall and he had a rant about the rest of Avenged getting on his nerves at times. Afterwards we watched one of his many horror films, during which I started to feel time.

 "Bed time" Matthew exclaimed after he noticed me nodding off. Simply I nodded expecting him to move off of the sofa so I could bed down for the night. "Come on then" He said rising out of the chair, I gave him a questioning look. "Well we're making this like old times and you used to sleep in my room" I wasn't expecting him to come out with that but I went along with it. I never liked sleeping on couches anyway. When I reached his room I was pleasantly surprised, his room was actually clean. As a teenager his room was always extremely messy this resulted in me cleaning it if I stayed over for the night.

 "Now if I remember correctly you can't sleep on floors 'cause it gives you a bad back"

 "Correct"

 "Looks like you sharing with me without the door being open" I nodded, his mum used to always insist on the door being open because she thought if it wasn't something would go on between us.

 He stripped to his boxers and climbed into his bed. Making my way over to his closet I stumbled some of his weights but soon regained by balance. I heard a chuckle.

 "What?"

 "You've always been prone to accidents" I stuck my tongue out at him. Shaking his head with a smile he put his hands behind his head. I got a T-shirt out of his closet and changed into it making sure that Matthew was looking the other way. Soon I was in a deep sleep next to him despite his loud snoring.  

 Waking up I sat bolt right up in his bed after having a nightmare. Recently nightmares have been plaguing my dreams causing me lack of sleep. I felt Matthew sit up beside me in the darkness.

 "What's wrong?"

 "Nightmare" I simply said. He said nothing, just carefully pulled me down so I was lying back down and started to stroke my head. He was quite close to me; soon I was back in the land of nod.

Taster of new story I may write:

The Art of Subconscious Illusion

 Waking up the vampire slowly rose out of her bed after being woken by her human tenant. A low growl formed in her throat. Opening the room door she saw him grinning innocently. This instantly put her in a good mood. She brushed past him and went downstairs into the kitchen and started to make what was to her breakfast to make her look human. The food that she made tasted bland. All she wanted was blood. The tenant came bounding down the stairs like a five year old when it's Christmas eager to open the presents that have been laid under the Christmas tree. Jumping next to her he changed the channel on the TV. Slowly she breathed in his candy like sent. Temptation started to take over her body like a fire inside her. She could bite him within a second, taste his sweet blood and he wouldn't be able to stop her. Digging her nails into her arm trying to stop the temptation only made her lust for blood become more alive and thrive more inside. The time was coming to where she knew that she wouldn't be able to control herself.

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Sat in ICT pretty bored

Done all my work

Go me lol

Anyways my dad has got me tickets to Slam Dunk

Hollywood Undead are gonna be there =P

Cant wait

Hopefully I'll meet Deuce and J-Dog heehee

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It wasn’t long till Matthew came over with the coffees and sat where Deuce was. As I was drinking my coffee I couldn’t help but stare into his beautiful green eyes. Mesmerised by them I felt him place his hand on top of mine. Snapping out of it I looked down at his hand. Smiling I looked back up at him. Again his more than perfect smile spread across his face. Time passed quickly. We got onto the subject of when we were kids; we’ve known each other since we were toddlers. It was quite comforting revisiting these memories, knowing that we’ve been through a lot together and stayed strong and good friends throughout.

 Each time my eyes laid on his face I can’t help but see him as a teenager seen as that was the most memories I had of him at that time in our lives.

 Soon after that we went shopping. He dragged me to the shops he wanted to go into and I did the same, but not literally of course. Flicking through a rack of clothes I picked out a dress with floral design printed on and held it against Matthew.

 “I think this is totally you” he gave me a look as though I had lost all of my sanity. Then it sunk in that I was having a joke. With a smile he took the dress off of me and made his way to the dressing room with me following. It was taking him quite a while to put the dress on.

 “Are you ok in there?” I simply asked.

 “No, I can’t get the fucking zip up”

 “Want me to help?”

 “Yeah” I opened the curtain slightly and went into the changing cubical then close the curtain behind me. Tugging on the zip I only managed to fasten it a bit.

 “Suck your gut in”

 “What gut?”

 “This gut” I said reaching under his arm and gently tapping his stomach.

 “That’s muscle” I looked at him with a look showing that I didn’t believe him. He just gave me an innocent look and then breathed in as I pulled up the zip.

 “Give us a twirl then” he did as I said while I laughed. “Suits you” I said laughing.

 “Now to get it off” it took us quite a while to get the dress off without ripping it. Afterwards we finished off our little shopping trip. Matthew took me home. When I entered the living room all of Hollywood Undead was sat about watching TV. Seen as there wasn’t a spare seat i made my way over the Deuce and sat on his lap. His arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I whined a bit seen as I was comfortable how I was.

 “How was your date?” J-Dog piped up, I rolled my eyes seen as it was typical of him.

 “If you’re referring to me spending time with Matthew which was not it a dare, it was fun”

 “Fun?” Da Kurlzz said trying to make something of it.

 “Yes fun. And not in the way that your trying to imply” I said a bit agitated.

 “Anyways, tonight we’re holding a house party” Deuce said changing the subject quickly.

 “We had a piss up last night so why do you want another?”

 “While you were gone we finished writing all the songs to our album so we thought it was a cause for celebration”

 “Any excuse” I said shaking my head. Looking at me he gave a quick grin, I just smiled back.

 “Do you mind if I invite Matthew and that lot?”

 “Not at all, need a catch up with them anyway”

 “Cool” I got up off of Deuce’s lap and called Matthew and the guy’s house. Matthew answered the phone, which I was glad about. Just the sound of his voice alone made me smile. He agreed to come over with the guys. After I got off of the phone I made the place look presentable even though it will look like a bomb will have hit it in the morning, then I went for a shower and got ready for the night ahead.

 It didn’t seem long till people started to arrive and the drinks started flowing. Avenged came bang on time Both Avenged and Hollywood Undead had a catch up with each other. While they were talking they kept looking over at me for some reason. Afterwards Matthew came wandering over to me and stood in front of me. Greeting him with a smile I took a sip of lemonade.

 “Wow not joining in with the drinking?” he said trying to sound surprised.

 “No, I can’t be bothered with the hangover in the morning”

 “Fair do’s” he said with a slight chuckle.

When he got to the club house he ordered some drinks (Of course mine would be non alcoholic) while I made my way to the seat by the window. Everyone who was in there were greeting him by name, I couldn’t help but laugh.

 “Shut up” Matthew said with a fake glare in my direction.

 “Make me” I said giggling at how obvious the fake glare was. As he approached me, I back away which caused me to fall onto the couch that was behind me. Soon he was tickling me resulting in my sides hurting from the amount of laughing I did. When he stopped he looked at me with a serious expression on his face which was again obviously fake. Unfortunately for him he can’t act to save his life but it makes it a whole lot cuter when he tries to. All of Matthew’s friends were looking at what we were doing with a puzzled look across their faces.

 “Are you going to stop laughing at me now?”

 “Yes sir” I said with a quick salute and then burst out laughing again. Matthew raised one eyebrow.  

 “I don’t think I should give you this” he said raising the glass of Coca-Cola he’d bought me.

 “I think that you should” slowly he shook his head and gave me the glass.

 Leaving me Matthew made his way over to his friends.

 “Just leave me here on my own like a loner”

 “You’re the one who stayed there” he said with his back to me. Simply I stuck my tongue out at him.

 “Even though I’ve got my back to you I still know what you’re doing”

 “How?

 “Magic” he said turning his head which had a slight smirk plastered on his lips.

 “Piss off your just plain weird” I made my way over to him quickly and stood at his side.

 “Love you too” he said in a sarcastic tone. I felt his hand gently touch my shoulder as he pulled me closer to him. It was quite a while before we left seen as Matthew and his new found friends were having a catch up session. Seen as I found the whole convocation boring I didn’t bother paying any attention and making any remarks about Matthew.  When we got into town the place was packed.

 “So where to first”
“I don’t know, want to go for a coffee?” Matthew nodded as an answer. As he was walking in front of me I couldn’t help but jump onto his back for a piggy back ride. His hands grabbed my legs gently and he adjusted me so I would be more comfortable. My arms wrapped around his neck as his walked.

 When we got to Star Bucks I sat down and waited for Matthew to come back with the coffees. As I was doing so Deuce came and sat opposite me. When I started to like either Matthew or Deuce the other would appear out of what seemed to be no-where causing me to like them just as much as the other. This always seemed to happen for some reason. Seen as I wasn’t expecting Deuce to be in town I questioned him. “What are you doing here then?” I simply asked.

 “I got bored” he simply said. To be honest I never really know what to say around him, it’s like I’m taking back to being a teenager that has a crush on some famous guy and gets to meet them, it’s quite strange that he has this effect on me. Instead of trying to think of something to say to him I decide to say nothing and hope that he will strike up convocation. He rose out of the chair he was briefly sat in and started to walk away.

 “Aren’t you forgetting something?” he made his way back and hugged me, I hugged back trying to keep my arms around him as long as possible. Slowly he pulled away from me.

 “Bye” a small smile started to curve the sides of his mouth.

 “Cya” I watched as he walked away from me.

 Staggering across the room trying to keep my balance I stumbled into somebody. Their arms wrapped tightly round me. I tried to get free but was unable to. Waves of tiredness came over me as I started to relax into the arms of my capture. Looking up I saw it was my mate Deuce who was slightly swaying due to the amount of alcohol he had drank. Music was blaring out of the stereo. Deuce tried to dance but ended up falling, taking me with him. Banging his head he was out for the count. Quickly I fell asleep on his chest, not disturbed by everyone around us.

 When I woke, I was still lying on Deuce who was still asleep. Carefully I got up, making sure I wouldn’t wake him. Stale alcohol lingered in the air causing me to feel sick. Stepping over the rest of Hollywood Undead I made my way into the kitchen. Quickly I searched the draws for painkillers. I took some and also put some out for the others on the coffee table. For a while I watched TV but with the volume on low. After a while they started to stir. Naturally I took no notice of them. They all took the painkillers I left out for them and kept quiet. I knew that I should stay quiet with the mood that they were in. As Deuce sat beside me the smell of stale alcohol became a lot more powerful causing me to gag. He just chuckled at my reaction and pulled me closer to him. By now I was used to the smell so I simply rested my head gently on his chest. My wretched hangover was finally starting to go when there was a knock at the door. All the guys looked at me to go and answer the door. Getting up I rolled my eyes at their laziness. When I opened the door it revealed that my good friend Matthew (lead singer of A7X) was standing there. His signature smile graced his face. I stepped aside. Swiftly he brushed past me and stood in the hallway. Only when I looked back at him I realised he was in one of his many golfing outfits.

 “You’re obsessed” he stuck his tongue out at me. “Child” he simply grinned at me and picked me up, taking advantage of our height difference.

 “Put me down!” I said trying to wriggle free.

 “No I’m a child” he said like a five year old. I shook my head at him immaturity, but if he wasn’t kind of immature it wouldn’t be him and the Matthew that I’ve grown to love. Suddenly he started to spin around in circles gradually getting faster. Gripping his shirt I literally begged him to stop and put me down. Eventually he stopped and put me back on the ground, but he had to catch me seen as I felt dizzy. I saw that all of Hollywood Undead had come into the hall and were watching what me and Matthew were up to. This was the first time that they had seen Matthew in his golfing outfit, they just burst out laughing. Simply Matthew just stood there watching their extremely rude reaction. He turned to me.

 “Do I look that stupid?”

 “No, you look fine” I said while straightening his collar. When I finished I slowly looked up. A small smile graced his perfect lips as a thank you. By now Hollywood Undead had calmed down.

 “Anyways, do you want to come golfing with me?” He asked addressing me. I just nodded as an answer.

 “Cool” he turned on his heel and made his way towards the door. I followed like a lost sheep. I knew that someone was bound to say something and sure enough they did.

 “Remember to keep hold of Matty boy’s hand and don’t talk to strangers” J-Dog said. In reaction I gave him the V-sign.

 “Well if you’re going to be like that I won’t allow you to out with your lover boy”

 “He isn’t my lover boy”

 “Whatever”

 “Piss off J-Dog” I said making my way out of the front door and shutting it behind me.

 It was a quick journey to the golf course seen as me and Matthew didn’t stop talking about random things. During this time we made a $500 bet on the game to make it more interesting. To be honest he was rubbish, the swings that he took were pathetic and his posture when attempting to take a swing was all wrong causing him to be off target. In the end I won the bet but refused to take his money but he made me take it and told me to get something nice for myself. As a thank you I hugged him. His arms wrapped tightly round me forming a hug making me feel secure even though there was no need for me to feel like that.

 “Come on lets go spend you winnings” Matthew said walking away, leaving me to cart the golf clubs back to the car. “Get your fucking arse back here!” He turned to face me with a questioning look on his face, which was quite cute. Simply I pointed at the golf clubs. Walking back over to me he chuckled.

 “Your too weak” He said when he approached me.

 “Well I’m sorry I don’t want the M.Shadows look” he shook his head with a smile. He threw the bag over one shoulder and put me over the other. I knew that it didn’t matter how much I ranted about him carrying me so I decided to keep quiet. Suddenly he dropped me and caught me at my feet. I couldn’t help but scream as he laughed at my reaction. Unfortunately I couldn’t grab onto him because of where my hands were. After a while he put me down but kept me close to his side.

This is a story that Ive been writing when bored in class and shit like that. Sorry I keep writing like loads of different stories but I keep getting writers block. Its a right bitch lol. Anyways comment (Y).

Idk what that was about

But I think you should all totally join this amazing group

Oh my gosh it's Rev's birthday today and he's 28

Like totally stating the obvious there haha.

It didn't seem two minutes ago that he was running about with his nappy on swearing his little head off.

Bless.

Anyways Im olnly assuming that he did that lol.

I would love to know what he was like as a toddler, I bet he was a right handfull XP

But wow he's becoming an old man and he doesn't even look it.

Lucky git can get totally rat arsed tonight but Im waiting till the weekend to celebrate lol.

You know what the sad thing is?

I could have gone down to London and seen Hollywood Undead =(

Ahh well there's always next time I guess.

But lets all celebrate this wonderfull event by all singing happy birthday to him

(8) Happy birthday

Happy birthday

Happy birthday dear Rev

Happy birthday to you (8)

And if you don't join in I'll make ya =D

Nicked this off of Emily heehee

---------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
Slept in your bed: Me

Saw you cry: Most of my class

Made you cry: Not telling.

You shared a drink with: How the heck am I supposed to know?

Ok I got tagged to do this journal by Beth a few days ago. Sorry it's taken me till now to do it.

Anyways lets see what I think is eye candy.

Seen as I don't really listen to metal I will choose people in rock (Y)

Well you can tell that by the title of this journal.

1) The Rev aka Jimmy Sullivan [Not such a suprise to you all tbh lol]

2) M.Shadows aka Matthew Charles Sanders [Extremly hot =P]

3) Deuce [He's like one of my new loves he's from the amazing band Hollywood Undead]

4) Andy Sixx [The lead singer of Black Veil Brides. If I ever meet Matthew again Im gonna bully him into taking Hollywood Undead and Black Veil Brides on tour with him 'cause that would be the most amazing show ever, well in my opinion it will be heehee]

5) Chris Stewart [Hes from Black Veil Brides as well]

6) Zacky Vengeance

7) Synyster Gates [Ok I do find him hot at times]

8) Davey Death [Lead Singer of Glamour of the Kill]

9) Jonny Radtke [From Kill Hannah]

10) Gabe Saporta [From Cobra Starship]

Hope you like that list lol.

Seen as I cba tagging anyone people who want to do this can (Y)

OK SORRY THAT THIS IS ALL IN CAPS BUT I WANT TO GET MY FRUSTRATION OUT BEFORE I GO OUT AND START A FIGHT 'CAUSE I REALLY WANT TO RIGHT NOW AND THIS ISNT AIMED AT ANYONE ON HERE JUST TO CLEAR THAT UP 1ST AND THIS IS REALLY FOR MY BENIFIT SO YOU DONT HAVE TO READ IT (Y)

I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AMD LET ME GET ON WITH MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT, I DONT NEED PEOPLE LECTURING OR TELLING ME HOW OR WHAT I SHOULD DO. NO-ONE KNOWS WHAT GOES THROUGH MY MIND AND RIGHT NOW PEOPLE KNOWS THINGS ARE GETTING ON TOP OF ME. THEN THEY HAVING THE FUCKING CHEEK TO SAY NOT TO TAKE IT ON THEM BUT IT WAS THEM WHO PUSHED ME OVER THE MOTHING FUCKING EDGE I HAVE A RIGHT TO HAVE A GO AT THEM

WHEN PEOPLE PISS ME OFF AND THEYVE DEFFINATLY HAVE ANNOYED ME I ALWAYS HAVE A GO AT THEM 'CAUSE THEY FUCKING DESERVE IT. IT SERVES THEM RIGHT FOR GETTING ONTO THE WRONG SIDE OF ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. IF PEOPLE ARE NICE TO ME I'LL BE NICE TO THEM BUT IF THEY'RE A BITCH OR WHATEVER THATS IT I'LL TOTALLY FLIP ON THE CUNTS.

MY BUSINESS IS MY FUCKING BUSINESS AND ITS NO-ONE ELSES UNLESS I TELL THEM. I DO WHAT I LIKE WHEN I LIKE AND IF PEOPLE DONT FUCKING LIKE IT THEY CAN SHOVE THEIR WORTHLESS OPINIONS WHERE THE SUN DOESNT FUCKING SHINE, THATS HOW MUCH I FUCKING CARE

AND I DONT NEED PEOPLE LOOKING OUT FOR ME AND IF I WANT THEM TO I WILL SHOW IT BUT IF I DONT I FUCKING WONT SHOW IT, IM NOT A FUCKING CHILD ANYMORE I HAVE MY OWN OPINONS I SEE THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES AND THINK DIFFERENTLY TO OTHER PEOPLE AND I CANT GET FUCKING BLAMED FOR THAT, OKAY I KNOW I MAY NEED A LITTLE GUIDANCE AT TIMES BUT I DONT NEED PEOPLE LIVING MY LIFE HOW THEY WANT TO THEY SHOULD CONCENTRATE ON THEIR OWN FUCKING LIVES NOT MINE. IT ISNT FUCKING RELEVENT TO THEM MY LIFE IS RELEVENT TO ME NOT TO THEM. OK I MADE THAT POINT QUITE CLEAR.

I DONT GIVE TWO SHITS IF SOME PEOPLE DIE OR NOT 'CAUSE FRANKLY THEY DONT HAVE ANY IMPACT ON MY LIFE ALL THEY FUCKING DO IS MAKE IT WORSE AND GET IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING.

IF PEOPLE MAKE ME FEEL FUCKING SHIT OR ANY OTHER EMOTION APART FROM HAPPY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT I'LL MAKE SURE I'LL BRING THEM DOWN IVE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT AND I CANT CHANGE IT. I KNOW YOUR ALL PROBABLY THINKING THAT IM BLOWING EVERYTHING OUT OF FUCKING PROPRTION BUT TBH I DONT CARE I WILL ADMIT THAT I DO HAVE A BIT OF AN ANGER PROBLEM WHEN SOME BUTONS ARE PUSHED.

IF I DO GET STABBED OR SHOT I DONT THINK I WILL REALLY CARE IF I GET KILLED 'CAUSE I'LL BE FUCKING DEAD AND ROTTING IN SOME GRAVE SOMEWHERE AND GUESS WHAT? I STILL WONT NEED ANYONE LOOKING OUT FOR ME BECAUSE SOMETIMES FATE IS FATE AND YOU CANT GET IN THE WAY OF THAT.

URGHHHHH IM REALLY SORRY IF YOU READ ALL OF THAT BUT DIDNT HAVE TO, YOU ALL THINK IM A BITCH NOW AHHH WELL. AND I KNOW NONE OF YOU WILL HAVE A CLUE ABOUT THIS AND THAT IS THE POINT YOU DONT REALLY NEED TO KNOW, THANK GOD FOR LAURA SHE CALMED ME DOWN AND I NO LONGER WANT TO START A FIGHT WHICH IS A GOOD THING BECAUSE OF THE ESTATE THAT I LIVE BY ISNT A GOOD IDEA TO GO AT NIGHT!!!!

ANYWAYS IF YOU READ THAT WOWOWOWOWOW

Breaking the silence, the voice of an enraged Matthew filled the room. John, the guy who was sat next to him had a shocked and a surprised expression on his face seen as all the shouting was aimed at him. I knew that something like this was bound to happen, it always does. Simply I sighed and told him to go outside and calm down. He glared at me. I rose out of my chair, “out now” I said as sternly as I could and pointed at the door. Still glaring at me, he flipped over a few chairs then headed out of the door. I gave him a few minutes to calm down. Then I went out to him. Angrily he was kicking the wall while mumbling to himself. “What was all that about?” I asked while walking towards him. He just glanced at me. From the expression on his face I could tell that he was frustrated with himself. This is something that I’ve never seen in him before. “Well?” I urged him for an answer.

 “You’ll just think I’m being stupid,” he said looking away from me.

 “Just tell me.” Heavily he sighed, his eyes glided across to me. “Please” his head turned to face me.

 “He was just being a totally bastard towards you” his gaze dropped to his shoes.

 “Oh” is all I could say. I knew that he had his moments where he was sensitive but it’s something I’ve never seen. There was silence between us which was quite awkward in a way.  

 “Sorry” He said breaking the silence.

 “No, you don’t have to be.” I knew that he had an anger problem which could be quite bad at times. “Just don’t wreck my furniture again,” I added in a light hearted way. He looked up at me; a slight smile graced his face. “Come on let’s get you back to class” I said turning round and walking. Almost silently he quickly made his way to my side.

 When we entered the classroom we were greeted by everyone in utter chaos seen as I had gone out of the room. Matthew left my side and went to pick up the chairs that he had thrown about while I quietened everyone down. He went to go and sit in his seat. “Where do you think you’re going?” I asked addressing him.

 “To my seat”

 “No you’re not, you’re sitting here” I pointed to the desk in front of me. Without protesting he gathered his things and sat at the desk I told him to. After that the double lesson went pretty smoothly. For once Matthew was being tolerable. When I let everyone go to break it was like a stampede with everyone rushing towards the door. Calmly and collectively Matthew made his way to the door, not phased by it being break.

 “Bye Miss” he said when he got to the door.

 “Bye Matthew” I replied.

Yey I finally typed it up lol. Anyways I hope you like it even though it's shite XD.  Read, comment and buzz (Y).Oh and it's been 6 months that me and Laura have been together =DDDD, time really does fly by.

  I woke up to my phone ringing. As I crawled out of my bed I saw that the caller ID was Zacky. I couldn’t help but let a smile spread across my face. He was the person that I longed to be with. At times he was the only person in the world who can put a smile on my face or cheer me up.

 “Hello” I answered a bit tired.

 “Hi, I’ve not woken you up have I?” my heart skipped a beat as soon as he spoke.

 “No I just got up”

 “Oh good, I must be physic then” he said with a chuckle.

 “Ha ha yeah. How are you?”

 “I’m fine thanks you?”

 “Ok I guess”

 “You guess...oh things still going bad then?”

 “Yeah. She thinks that she can just walk in here and everything’s going to be fine” I said with a little bit of anger in my voice. You see my dad Jimmy Sullivan or The Rev is my dad and he’s recently had an affair which caused mum to leave and the little slut that he’s with Leana silver has moved in.

 “Oh that sucks”

 “Totally, anyways why did you ring?”

 “Oh yeah, I was wondering if you wanted to come to the mall with me?” again a smile spread across my face.

 “Sure”

 “Sweet, I’ll pick you up about one”

 “No I’ll come to yours” least I’ll be out of the house sooner I thought.

 “Ok, see you soon then”

 “Yeah bye”

 “Bye” then we both hung up. I wandered out of my room and walked past my sister’s room. Her bedroom door was open; she never sleeps with the door open. I poked my head round the door and she wasn’t in her bed. I sighed heavily to myself because I knew that she wouldn’t be awake at this time and what she had been doing. I made my way down to the living room and sure as hell Charlotte was asleep on the sofa. There was the smell of stale oh Jack Daniel’s lingering in the air. She’d been drinking again. Ever since mum walked out Charlotte had become depressed about the matter and started drinking. Dad wouldn’t let us have any contact with mum so that made matters worse. I guess Leana had something to do with it. I wasn’t really that upset about it, I think it’s because I wasn’t really that close with her, anger is more the emotion that runs through me towards Leana for messing up the family.

 I went over and disposed of the bottle. Then I came back into the living room with a glass of water and painkillers. I began to wake Charlotte; it took a while because she was literally dead to the world. When she finally woke up and came round I handed her the painkillers and water. She took them. To be honest she looked a mess. I looked at the clock on the mantel piece; I knew that dad would still be asleep for another hour or so.

 “I’m going for a shower” she said getting up and putting her hand on her head. Then she went running into the kitchen and threw up. I rolled my eyes. I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. It was probably Leana and I was right. Just what we both needed. When Charlotte entered the living room again I noticed that Leana was looking smug. Both I and Charlotte knew that she was going to start another lecture.

 “You know you shouldn’t be drinking” Leana said trying to be a mother. She thinks that she is the best mother ever…well substitute mother but she really isn’t. She’s more the step mother from hell.

 “Like you care” Charlotte said in a flat tone and making her way towards the stairs. Leana blocked her way. She knew that she could really drill into Charlotte while she was hung over.

 “You know I do and you shouldn’t be drinking like this” I got annoyed with what she said.

 “Well if you really did care about people drinking you would be bothered about dad’s drinking. As you know he drinks way more than her!”

 “You know I can’t control him”

 “And if you think you can control us you’ve got another thing coming” I said raising my voice a bit.

 “You know I’m only doing it for your own good” I could have slapped her at this point but I didn’t see why I should waste my energy on her.

 “Well if you really do care for our well being go and pack your fucking bags and leave us the fuck alone!” Charlotte exclaimed.

 “You know I can’t do that”

 “Well I’ll do it for you” by this point they were both glaring at each other. Charlotte walked past her making sure she went into her causing her to stumble then she made her way upstairs to the bathroom.

 Leana just shrugged and walked towards the couch. She was being smug thinking that she had won but I knew that she hadn’t because there would be more soon. I couldn’t bear to be in the same room as her by myself so I made my way outside into the back garden.  

Well there's a little problem about that

No I'm not going to end it

But....

It's 'cause I was writing it at school and yesterday seen as I wasn't there I left my folder where my story lives in at the moment in my locker.

It was pretty good, well to me it was.

So basically I have to wait till I go back to school to get my folder and type up the story.

So just hold on a bit with it.

I do hope that it'll be worth the wait (Y)