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Idk what that was about

But I think you should all totally join this amazing group

Oh my gosh it's Rev's birthday today and he's 28

Like totally stating the obvious there haha.

It didn't seem two minutes ago that he was running about with his nappy on swearing his little head off.

Bless.

Anyways Im olnly assuming that he did that lol.

I would love to know what he was like as a toddler, I bet he was a right handfull XP

But wow he's becoming an old man and he doesn't even look it.

Lucky git can get totally rat arsed tonight but Im waiting till the weekend to celebrate lol.

You know what the sad thing is?

I could have gone down to London and seen Hollywood Undead =(

Ahh well there's always next time I guess.

But lets all celebrate this wonderfull event by all singing happy birthday to him

(8) Happy birthday

Happy birthday

Happy birthday dear Rev

Happy birthday to you (8)

And if you don't join in I'll make ya =D

Nicked this off of Emily heehee

---------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
Slept in your bed: Me

Saw you cry: Most of my class

Made you cry: Not telling.

You shared a drink with: How the heck am I supposed to know?

Ok I got tagged to do this journal by Beth a few days ago. Sorry it's taken me till now to do it.

Anyways lets see what I think is eye candy.

Seen as I don't really listen to metal I will choose people in rock (Y)

Well you can tell that by the title of this journal.

1) The Rev aka Jimmy Sullivan [Not such a suprise to you all tbh lol]

2) M.Shadows aka Matthew Charles Sanders [Extremly hot =P]

3) Deuce [He's like one of my new loves he's from the amazing band Hollywood Undead]

4) Andy Sixx [The lead singer of Black Veil Brides. If I ever meet Matthew again Im gonna bully him into taking Hollywood Undead and Black Veil Brides on tour with him 'cause that would be the most amazing show ever, well in my opinion it will be heehee]

5) Chris Stewart [Hes from Black Veil Brides as well]

6) Zacky Vengeance

7) Synyster Gates [Ok I do find him hot at times]

8) Davey Death [Lead Singer of Glamour of the Kill]

9) Jonny Radtke [From Kill Hannah]

10) Gabe Saporta [From Cobra Starship]

Hope you like that list lol.

Seen as I cba tagging anyone people who want to do this can (Y)

OK SORRY THAT THIS IS ALL IN CAPS BUT I WANT TO GET MY FRUSTRATION OUT BEFORE I GO OUT AND START A FIGHT 'CAUSE I REALLY WANT TO RIGHT NOW AND THIS ISNT AIMED AT ANYONE ON HERE JUST TO CLEAR THAT UP 1ST AND THIS IS REALLY FOR MY BENIFIT SO YOU DONT HAVE TO READ IT (Y)

I WISH THAT PEOPLE WOULD LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AMD LET ME GET ON WITH MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT, I DONT NEED PEOPLE LECTURING OR TELLING ME HOW OR WHAT I SHOULD DO. NO-ONE KNOWS WHAT GOES THROUGH MY MIND AND RIGHT NOW PEOPLE KNOWS THINGS ARE GETTING ON TOP OF ME. THEN THEY HAVING THE FUCKING CHEEK TO SAY NOT TO TAKE IT ON THEM BUT IT WAS THEM WHO PUSHED ME OVER THE MOTHING FUCKING EDGE I HAVE A RIGHT TO HAVE A GO AT THEM

WHEN PEOPLE PISS ME OFF AND THEYVE DEFFINATLY HAVE ANNOYED ME I ALWAYS HAVE A GO AT THEM 'CAUSE THEY FUCKING DESERVE IT. IT SERVES THEM RIGHT FOR GETTING ONTO THE WRONG SIDE OF ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. IF PEOPLE ARE NICE TO ME I'LL BE NICE TO THEM BUT IF THEY'RE A BITCH OR WHATEVER THATS IT I'LL TOTALLY FLIP ON THE CUNTS.

MY BUSINESS IS MY FUCKING BUSINESS AND ITS NO-ONE ELSES UNLESS I TELL THEM. I DO WHAT I LIKE WHEN I LIKE AND IF PEOPLE DONT FUCKING LIKE IT THEY CAN SHOVE THEIR WORTHLESS OPINIONS WHERE THE SUN DOESNT FUCKING SHINE, THATS HOW MUCH I FUCKING CARE

AND I DONT NEED PEOPLE LOOKING OUT FOR ME AND IF I WANT THEM TO I WILL SHOW IT BUT IF I DONT I FUCKING WONT SHOW IT, IM NOT A FUCKING CHILD ANYMORE I HAVE MY OWN OPINONS I SEE THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES AND THINK DIFFERENTLY TO OTHER PEOPLE AND I CANT GET FUCKING BLAMED FOR THAT, OKAY I KNOW I MAY NEED A LITTLE GUIDANCE AT TIMES BUT I DONT NEED PEOPLE LIVING MY LIFE HOW THEY WANT TO THEY SHOULD CONCENTRATE ON THEIR OWN FUCKING LIVES NOT MINE. IT ISNT FUCKING RELEVENT TO THEM MY LIFE IS RELEVENT TO ME NOT TO THEM. OK I MADE THAT POINT QUITE CLEAR.

I DONT GIVE TWO SHITS IF SOME PEOPLE DIE OR NOT 'CAUSE FRANKLY THEY DONT HAVE ANY IMPACT ON MY LIFE ALL THEY FUCKING DO IS MAKE IT WORSE AND GET IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING.

IF PEOPLE MAKE ME FEEL FUCKING SHIT OR ANY OTHER EMOTION APART FROM HAPPY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT I'LL MAKE SURE I'LL BRING THEM DOWN IVE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT AND I CANT CHANGE IT. I KNOW YOUR ALL PROBABLY THINKING THAT IM BLOWING EVERYTHING OUT OF FUCKING PROPRTION BUT TBH I DONT CARE I WILL ADMIT THAT I DO HAVE A BIT OF AN ANGER PROBLEM WHEN SOME BUTONS ARE PUSHED.

IF I DO GET STABBED OR SHOT I DONT THINK I WILL REALLY CARE IF I GET KILLED 'CAUSE I'LL BE FUCKING DEAD AND ROTTING IN SOME GRAVE SOMEWHERE AND GUESS WHAT? I STILL WONT NEED ANYONE LOOKING OUT FOR ME BECAUSE SOMETIMES FATE IS FATE AND YOU CANT GET IN THE WAY OF THAT.

URGHHHHH IM REALLY SORRY IF YOU READ ALL OF THAT BUT DIDNT HAVE TO, YOU ALL THINK IM A BITCH NOW AHHH WELL. AND I KNOW NONE OF YOU WILL HAVE A CLUE ABOUT THIS AND THAT IS THE POINT YOU DONT REALLY NEED TO KNOW, THANK GOD FOR LAURA SHE CALMED ME DOWN AND I NO LONGER WANT TO START A FIGHT WHICH IS A GOOD THING BECAUSE OF THE ESTATE THAT I LIVE BY ISNT A GOOD IDEA TO GO AT NIGHT!!!!

ANYWAYS IF YOU READ THAT WOWOWOWOWOW

Breaking the silence, the voice of an enraged Matthew filled the room. John, the guy who was sat next to him had a shocked and a surprised expression on his face seen as all the shouting was aimed at him. I knew that something like this was bound to happen, it always does. Simply I sighed and told him to go outside and calm down. He glared at me. I rose out of my chair, “out now” I said as sternly as I could and pointed at the door. Still glaring at me, he flipped over a few chairs then headed out of the door. I gave him a few minutes to calm down. Then I went out to him. Angrily he was kicking the wall while mumbling to himself. “What was all that about?” I asked while walking towards him. He just glanced at me. From the expression on his face I could tell that he was frustrated with himself. This is something that I’ve never seen in him before. “Well?” I urged him for an answer.

 “You’ll just think I’m being stupid,” he said looking away from me.

 “Just tell me.” Heavily he sighed, his eyes glided across to me. “Please” his head turned to face me.

 “He was just being a totally bastard towards you” his gaze dropped to his shoes.

 “Oh” is all I could say. I knew that he had his moments where he was sensitive but it’s something I’ve never seen. There was silence between us which was quite awkward in a way.  

 “Sorry” He said breaking the silence.

 “No, you don’t have to be.” I knew that he had an anger problem which could be quite bad at times. “Just don’t wreck my furniture again,” I added in a light hearted way. He looked up at me; a slight smile graced his face. “Come on let’s get you back to class” I said turning round and walking. Almost silently he quickly made his way to my side.

 When we entered the classroom we were greeted by everyone in utter chaos seen as I had gone out of the room. Matthew left my side and went to pick up the chairs that he had thrown about while I quietened everyone down. He went to go and sit in his seat. “Where do you think you’re going?” I asked addressing him.

 “To my seat”

 “No you’re not, you’re sitting here” I pointed to the desk in front of me. Without protesting he gathered his things and sat at the desk I told him to. After that the double lesson went pretty smoothly. For once Matthew was being tolerable. When I let everyone go to break it was like a stampede with everyone rushing towards the door. Calmly and collectively Matthew made his way to the door, not phased by it being break.

 “Bye Miss” he said when he got to the door.

 “Bye Matthew” I replied.

Yey I finally typed it up lol. Anyways I hope you like it even though it's shite XD.  Read, comment and buzz (Y).Oh and it's been 6 months that me and Laura have been together =DDDD, time really does fly by.

  I woke up to my phone ringing. As I crawled out of my bed I saw that the caller ID was Zacky. I couldn’t help but let a smile spread across my face. He was the person that I longed to be with. At times he was the only person in the world who can put a smile on my face or cheer me up.

 “Hello” I answered a bit tired.

 “Hi, I’ve not woken you up have I?” my heart skipped a beat as soon as he spoke.

 “No I just got up”

 “Oh good, I must be physic then” he said with a chuckle.

 “Ha ha yeah. How are you?”

 “I’m fine thanks you?”

 “Ok I guess”

 “You guess...oh things still going bad then?”

 “Yeah. She thinks that she can just walk in here and everything’s going to be fine” I said with a little bit of anger in my voice. You see my dad Jimmy Sullivan or The Rev is my dad and he’s recently had an affair which caused mum to leave and the little slut that he’s with Leana silver has moved in.

 “Oh that sucks”

 “Totally, anyways why did you ring?”

 “Oh yeah, I was wondering if you wanted to come to the mall with me?” again a smile spread across my face.

 “Sure”

 “Sweet, I’ll pick you up about one”

 “No I’ll come to yours” least I’ll be out of the house sooner I thought.

 “Ok, see you soon then”

 “Yeah bye”

 “Bye” then we both hung up. I wandered out of my room and walked past my sister’s room. Her bedroom door was open; she never sleeps with the door open. I poked my head round the door and she wasn’t in her bed. I sighed heavily to myself because I knew that she wouldn’t be awake at this time and what she had been doing. I made my way down to the living room and sure as hell Charlotte was asleep on the sofa. There was the smell of stale oh Jack Daniel’s lingering in the air. She’d been drinking again. Ever since mum walked out Charlotte had become depressed about the matter and started drinking. Dad wouldn’t let us have any contact with mum so that made matters worse. I guess Leana had something to do with it. I wasn’t really that upset about it, I think it’s because I wasn’t really that close with her, anger is more the emotion that runs through me towards Leana for messing up the family.

 I went over and disposed of the bottle. Then I came back into the living room with a glass of water and painkillers. I began to wake Charlotte; it took a while because she was literally dead to the world. When she finally woke up and came round I handed her the painkillers and water. She took them. To be honest she looked a mess. I looked at the clock on the mantel piece; I knew that dad would still be asleep for another hour or so.

 “I’m going for a shower” she said getting up and putting her hand on her head. Then she went running into the kitchen and threw up. I rolled my eyes. I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. It was probably Leana and I was right. Just what we both needed. When Charlotte entered the living room again I noticed that Leana was looking smug. Both I and Charlotte knew that she was going to start another lecture.

 “You know you shouldn’t be drinking” Leana said trying to be a mother. She thinks that she is the best mother ever…well substitute mother but she really isn’t. She’s more the step mother from hell.

 “Like you care” Charlotte said in a flat tone and making her way towards the stairs. Leana blocked her way. She knew that she could really drill into Charlotte while she was hung over.

 “You know I do and you shouldn’t be drinking like this” I got annoyed with what she said.

 “Well if you really did care about people drinking you would be bothered about dad’s drinking. As you know he drinks way more than her!”

 “You know I can’t control him”

 “And if you think you can control us you’ve got another thing coming” I said raising my voice a bit.

 “You know I’m only doing it for your own good” I could have slapped her at this point but I didn’t see why I should waste my energy on her.

 “Well if you really do care for our well being go and pack your fucking bags and leave us the fuck alone!” Charlotte exclaimed.

 “You know I can’t do that”

 “Well I’ll do it for you” by this point they were both glaring at each other. Charlotte walked past her making sure she went into her causing her to stumble then she made her way upstairs to the bathroom.

 Leana just shrugged and walked towards the couch. She was being smug thinking that she had won but I knew that she hadn’t because there would be more soon. I couldn’t bear to be in the same room as her by myself so I made my way outside into the back garden.  

Well there's a little problem about that

No I'm not going to end it

But....

It's 'cause I was writing it at school and yesterday seen as I wasn't there I left my folder where my story lives in at the moment in my locker.

It was pretty good, well to me it was.

So basically I have to wait till I go back to school to get my folder and type up the story.

So just hold on a bit with it.

I do hope that it'll be worth the wait (Y)

Yeah as you can see from the title me and the love of my life Laura have been together for five months

To be honest they've been the best five months of my life and it doesn't feel like it.

I love you so much baby

Happy five months aniversary

 =)

As my eyes scanned the classroom full of students I saw only one empty seat. Instantly I knew who should be sitting there. Even though I’ve been gone a while the routine seemed to be the same.

 After a while of me seeing what the class has managed to get done while I was gone Matthew came in. When his eyes saw me I couldn’t tell whether he was happy or shocked to see that I was back. Simply I just looked at him waiting for an apology for being late. It was obvious that I wasn’t going to get one. Today of all days I couldn’t be bothered arguing with him. When he started to walk to his seat I started to teach. My eyes skimmed a sheet that one of the teachers left me about the homework that they had set them. Seen as it was tied in with what I planned for everyone to do I thought that they should get it out and for me to check and see what they’ve done. When I told them everyone got their sheets out apart from Matthew. It didn’t come as a surprise to me. I went over and stood over his desk. Slowly through his eyelashes his eyes looked up at me, the expression on his face looked like he didn’t know what I was doing here. “So what’s your excuse for not doing your homework this time?” He was still looking at me. My eyes caught glance of his hand going into his pocket and digging out a scruffy piece of paper. He handed it to me with a smug look on his face. Quickly my eyes scanned the paper; it seemed to have some resemblance of the homework. I shook my head in disappointment and handed him back the piece of paper. His smug look started spread even more across his face. I couldn’t be bothered with him at all, “well you can’t do anything this lesson” I simply said walking away from him. When I returned to my desk and glanced at the rest of the class my eyes fell on Matthew, his legs were on the table, relaxing basically. He always was finding some way to rebel, it was him and nothing could change it at the moment. I knew today he was trying to see how far he could push me before I lost my temper. Fragile was more what I was feeling and anger wouldn’t really affect me today, I could tell, I don’t know why I came in today. I wasn’t ready to teach but least it took my mind off of everything that has happened in the last couple of months.  

Yes I know it is pretty short but I don't care. I hope you enjoy. You know what to do (Y)

Ok some of you may have been expecting another part to A Little Piece Of Heaven but there isn't as you can clearly see. The reason I'm writing this journal is that I can't really think of anything and everything I write is a load of rubbish and doesn't make much sense. So anyways I have decided to stop it.

Before you all start panicing about it [highly doubt that but it would be nice lol] I have another idea for a story but I haven't quite thought of a title. I've been working on it for a little while so that hopefully will be up soon with a fitting title to what my idea is for it. But I'm not going to tell you muahahahaha.

Probably none of you will care but I thought that I would be nice and tell you.

Happy birthday spotted dick =) 

The little fucker is finally growing up.

Yey for him.

Getting drunk on beer and wine.

Quite fitting really when you come to think of it.

I'm going to watch all of the Avenged DVD's as well.

(8) Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday dear Johnnyyyy

Happy birthday to you (8)

I hope he has a good day and shit.

That's like the only decent picture of him.

It's offically the best show ever.

Apart from Miami Ink of course (Y).

For those of you who don't have the pleasure of knowing what I'm A Celeb is I will tell you.

Basicly it's a reality TV show. They shove some celebrites that are famous over here in the UK in a jungle in Australia for a few weeks and us Brits get to watch them 24/7. They get voted off and who ever wins is named king or queen of the jungle. For them to win food they have to do a thing called a "Bush Tucker Trail" this is where the two camps [they get split up] go against each other to do tasks involving loads of disgusting bugs but the best trail is when they have to eat Kangeroo balls and a Crocodile dick, it's pretty funny to watch their faces. But they have to collect stars and who ever gets the most stars get to eat that night and have a proper meal where the other camp has to eat Beans and Rice.

It's presented by Ant and Dec who are two "comedians" for those who don't know what they look like here's a picture of them both.

The taller one is Ant and the other one is Dec.

Personally I think that Avenged should go in and do this show. I think it would be very funny but that's just me.
 

ok first off stuff grammer and punctuation for this journal

this is more of a rant to take my anger out instead of doing something that will hurt like.

ok right there's this girl that i absolutly hate and i really do wish she would fuck off out of my life FOR GOOD.

let me see, she mocks me every two fucking seconds even if it's an accidental mistake. as most of you may know im quite rubbish at spelling and apprently she's perfect so if i spell something wrong like even on the computer and its a simple spelling mistake she corrects me. it gets to you after a while. ok i do get a bit urgh ive gotta correct that person if they havent used their grammer/punctuation properly but i never do cause that is just underminding them and most of the time you can tell its a simple mistake like. not with her.

an other thing. im short. big fucking deal right. but to her she always has to take a fucking dig at me about it. is it my fault that im short? no, so why keep going on about it. like now im used to people commenting on my size and i just shrug it off but with her its just fucking lame and she should seriously stop it. i even joke about my height with people. i am light hearted about some things dont get me wrong like.

she also takes the mick out of people that are close to me. i dont really mind when its me but when its people i care about then it really does get to me cause they dont have the right to say shit about people they dont even know anything about. by this im not meaning avenged cause everyone does that and i dont really mind up to a point but i mean people like my family and laura.

her latest thing now is to try and act like shes my fucking mother. im sorry but did she give birth to me? fuck no (i dread to think what her kids are gonna be like if she ever has any). this is my life and no-one can tell me how to lead it especially not some stupid bitch that think shes fucking it. ok heres a bit of an msn convo we had:

im sorry but i have another test before maths. and i fucking know how important my fucking GCSE's are. im sorry that i dont revise until its coming out of my fucking ears and like 10 months in advance. everyone is fucking different and learns different ways. this doesnt give her the fucking right to tell me how to do stuff. i am my own person and i do things when the fuck i like and when i feel its right.

im truely dreding school on monday to spend it with that fucking bitch. she wont go away when you fucking tell her to she just keeps going on and on and on and on until your close to blowing your lid. least we're finishing early and i dont have to put up with her as much. no-one likes her like at all.

if you just read all that you really didnt have to at all.

 “If Jade is comfortable with Matt and vice versa there shouldn’t be a problem. After all we’re supposed to have her best interests at heart” Derek just nodded in response.

 “If Jade wants to she can come to band practise with me today?” Matt suggested. Haley and Derek looked at each other for a few seconds then back at me and Matt. I was hoping they’d agree. Derek started to walk towards the exit of the office and signalled for me to follow him. I did. When I was out in the hall way Derek took me off so that no-one would be able to hear what was being said between us.

 “You do know that I’m not going to let him adopt you?” I simply nodded. He had a tight grip on my arm and it was starting hurt. Derek carried on.

 “Anyways if he did adopt you he would only bring you back after he realises what a stupid and worthless bitch you are” I looked down at my shoes. Every chance that he had to put me down he took.

 “You’re nothing but a waste of space I don’t know how anybody including me puts up with you. But moving on when you get back in there I want you to make up some excuse of not going to his little band practise” I knew that if I did as he said Matt would probably get suspicious and ask questions. “But Matt will probably suspect that there’s something wrong and so will Haley” I looked up after I said that and I saw that he was thinking. Slowly he nodded in agreement to what I was saying. He pushed me in front of him signalling me to walk, so I did. I went back into the office and sat back down next to Matt. Derek soon followed me in.

 “Well Jade can go with you to your band practise today”

 “Sweet. Can she come now?” Derek simply nodded. Matt stood up; he looked towards me and smiled. I smiled back at him and got up from out of the chair. “Well I guess I best go get ready and stuff” I said while walking towards the door. I could hear Matt’s foots steps following me.

Ok this is like really short. But I promise that the next part will be longer. This is just a filler type thing. Anyways I hope you enjoyed if you read this. And thank you for taking it out of your time to read this shat lol.