Too Many Doses And I'm Starting To Get An Attraction

It has been a month till my birthday and me and Jimmy are round at the guys place, just chilling and catching up with what has been happening over the past few weeks because I don’t see them much. That’s a shame because I love being around them because I always feel happier and I don’t really feel that. Jimmy makes me feel happy but the depression never leaves me. Jimmy doesn’t know that I suffer from depression, I don’t know why I haven’t told him, I think it’s because I don’t want him to interfere. He’ll probably say something like ’there’s nothing to be depressed about’ and stuff like that. The thing is that no-one understands what I go through even though I try to explain it to them, they think it’s just me making everything like that and it’s all my fault but it isn’t.

We were all chilling in the living room, me and Jimmy we curled up together and so were Matt and Val. Every once in a while Jimmy gave me a kiss/peck on the cheek, he kept playing with my hair he was really gentle though, I didn’t know that he wasn’t doing it really. There was nothing good on TV but I didn’t mind. I looked over to where Johnny was sat that he looked a bit down.

“Anything the matter Johnny?” I asked while breaking the silence. Everyone turned to face Johnny.

“No, just having one of those days” he said and put on a little smile, I didn’t like seeing Johnny like this because he’s normally a very cheery and happy guy, even when he has been beaten up he looks quite happy. It was as though nothing could upset him but obviously something could. I wish I knew what was troubling him because I have a soft spot for him, but I didn’t want to push him.

After a while I was getting a bit bored. I don’t know why but I need to be amused, I’ve always been that way out, but a lot of the time I just put up with it. I think Jimmy was feeling the same way as me.

“Well I’m off for a walk down to the beach, anyone coming?” Jimmy said after a while.

“I will” I said while getting up. I could feel Jimmy’s eyes on my ass, he can be a pervert at times but he’s mostly extremely sweet, but in front of the others he likes to give the impression that he’s perverted, him and his bloody ego but I don’t mind.

“Quit looking Jimmy” I giggled

“Can’t help it” I looked at him and saw that he was grinning, I shook my head and headed for the front door.

“Hey! Wait for me” Jimmy said while getting up.

“Well hurry up” a few seconds after saying that Jimmy was by my side.

“Any one else coming?” I heard a few grunts from the guys, I took it as a no.

“No your ok” Val said, well least she had the manners to reply politely. Me and Jimmy left the house. It was a really nice day, the sun was out and not a cloud in the sky and there was a gentle breeze. My hair swayed in the breeze, I saw that Jimmy was looking at me. He gave a sigh.

“What’s up?”

“Just wishing I could be as beautiful as you” then he gave me a smile.

“Awww Jimmy your so sweet” I gave him a peck of the lips and smiled at him.

We came down to the beach, there was a few people there but it wasn’t crowded. I was surprised because when the weather is like this everyone is down at the beach sunbathing, surfing and doing activities like that. I laid a towel onto the sand and took my top off and laid down on the towel, I saw that Jimmy wouldn’t stop looking.

“You pervert” I giggled, I’m used to him acting like this and in a weird way I liked it.

“Well aren’t you going to lay down or just stand there looking at me?”

“Urrm I think I’ll stand here” he said while grinning at me, I shook my head and giggled. I started to bathe in the sun, the sun shone gently on my face, I closed my eyes. After a while I felt Jimmy’s lips press against mine, I pressed my tongue against his soft lips. He opened his mouth to let my tongue slip inside. It was like our tongues were dancing. Jimmy pulled away first, I was still in a world of my own, a world like paradise. After a few seconds I came back to my senses and Jimmy laid down next to me, supporting himself on one hand while facing me. He wouldn’t stop smiling at me. He reached over and brushed some of my hair out of the way of my eyes.

It’s still the day of my birthday and Jimmy’s teaching me a few drum beats…well trying to. I was making a very bad job of it. I was making the amazing sound of them perish.

“You hold the sticks like this” Jimmy said while adjusting my hands on the drum sticks. His hand was so soft and gentle against my skin. I looked into his eyes, they seemed to sparkle in the light. His eyes were like sapphires. Then I gave him a hug and a peck on the cheek.

“What was that for?”

“Does there need to be a reason?” I said smiling at him and brushed the hair out of his face. His hair is so perfect, he takes ages to do it. That’s the only down fall about Jimmy because he takes ages in the bathroom to do his hair and hogs the mirror.

“Come lets have a break”

“Ok” I said getting up. Jimmy held out his hand for me to take, I did so. We went into the local café. It was a small cosy little place, had lots of charm. I bought a coffee for Jimmy and a pot of tea for me. Jimmy wouldn’t stop looking at me and smiling at me this made me blush a bit.

“Why do you keep looking at me?”

“So do you” I said smiling at him. I noticed that Jimmy’s eyeliner was a bit smudged.

“Come here”

“Ah now we need to make it even” I did the same thing but under his other eye.

“There we go” I said smiling.

“Your smile is so sweet”

“Yours is sweeter” I loved his smile because his cheeks went all chubby and he looked so sweet.

sorry for the long wait...writers block sucks

Today is my birthday. I was so excited, I felt like at little kid again. You know when you want to open your present as soon as you see them. I thought that I was going out to dinner with Jimmy and the guys and not forgetting Val (of course) to celebrate.

“I wrote it for you”

“It’s beautiful” this was better than any bought gift I thought it came from the heart and that’s what I found sweet and thoughtful.

“I can tell” I smiled at him. A tear rolled down my cheek because I was so happy.

“Nothing” I smiled at him. I gave him a hug.

I think if I hadn’t met Jimmy I would have never been truly happy with the guy who I met and thought I love. I had no idea that Jimmy could effect me this much. From the deepest depths of my soul and heart I really do mean it. I know I say stuff like that a lot but it isn’t even near enough to how much he does mean to me or how much I love him.

I woke up the next morning extremely happy. I looked to where Jimmy was and I saw that he was already awake and smiling at me.

“You know it’s rude to stare” I giggled.

Probably to people that saw him walking down the street thought that he was a freak of some sort, a guy that has a heart cast of stone but when you get to know him you realise that he’s the most loving, romantic, friendliest, and sweetest guy to ever have lived, well that’s my opinion. Ok yeah he can be perverted at times but that adds to his charm and characteristics.

After we had breakfast we went for a walk around the grounds of the hotel. The birds were singing, the sun was shining and I was with the love of my life. We walked down to the lake hand in hand. The lake was glistening with the sun shining onto the lake. There was a bench facing the lake so we sat down. Jimmy put his arm round me and pulled me closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulder.

I realised that last night we didn’t use protection.

“Jimmy”

“Yeah?”

“Um, last night”

“What about it?”

“We didn’t use protection”

“Yeah but just to be on the safe side”

Later that afternoon Jimmy went into the village. I stayed in our hotel room, I was pacing up and down our room. I know I worry to much but I can’t help it. I would be so relieved when he came back. To me it seemed like he was taking forever but in actual fact he was only about half an hour. He came back with a box of condoms and a pregnancy test.

I let out a huge sigh of relief when I saw the results.

“Well?”

“I told you” Jimmy said with smile on his face and coming up to me and giving me a hug, I wrapped my arms round him. He was so warm and cuddly.

We arrived at this really big hotel it seemed quite posh from the outside.

“Bloody hell” I said when Jimmy pulled up in the parking lot.

“You like?”

“Yeah” I’ve never been to a hotel as upper-class as this. I started to think about when I was a child, when my mother and farther used to take me and my brother on holiday to them beach resorts. I wish I could go back to them days, least my parents actually was in contact with me I don’t know what I did wrong but they haven’t been in contact with me in years nor has my brother.

“Something the matter?”

“No, just thinking”

“Coming?”

“Yeah” I said getting up off the bed. We went into the local village, while we were walking around I noticed that me and Jimmy were the only people holding hands and being really close. We had each others arm wrapped round each others waist, there wasn’t an inch between us. Even though it was a bit chilly I was toasty warm with Jimmy being so close to me.

Afterwards we went for a random walk around the area, the scenery was beautiful. It made being with Jimmy even more wonderful and magical. When we got back to the hotel it was 8:00 pm and Jimmy had booked the table for 8:30. I only had the clothes that I came in.

“Gosh Jimmy” I said smiling at him, he smiled back at me. It took Jimmy fifteen minuets to get ready, I was no where near ready.

“Well I’ll meet you in the bar”

“Ok”

All the dresses were black but different styles. The dress that I choose to wear was a longish dress, with a opaque under lining and a flimsy, sort of see through type of material, there was a deep V, I don’t really like showing a lot of my flesh off but I felt comfortable in it. I liked it that Jimmy knew what I was like and what I would wear and stuff like that. I used some of his eye make-up, hopefully he wouldn’t mind. I went down to the bar. Jimmy stood up and smiled while I was approaching him.

It was a candle lit dinner that we were having. Jimmy looked even more handsome in the light. Jimmy is the best thing that as ever happened to me, no matter how many times I think or say it I always mean it from the depths of my heat and soul. I love him so much that I could never say how much I do even if I try extremely hard, I just can’t. all through dinner me and Jimmy couldn’t stop smiling at each other. I think that the waiters didn’t want to disturb us.

“We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to”

“I do…but…you know” he started to peck me on the lips while lowering himself, this took my mind off things. Then he entered me. I felt a little bit of pain as he did. He started to go slow and started to nibble my neck, I let out a little groan of pleasure. Then he started to go a bit faster. I groaned even more. Soon after I was nearing to having an orgasm.

“Faster Jimmy, faster” I screamed while panting. He did. Then I climaxed to my full. Jimmy started to slow down. I let out another groan but it came more from the throat. I rolled Jimmy over so I was on top. He wrapped his hands around my waist, I started to ride him. He was quite quick to have an orgasm. He screamed/groaned out my name as he was climaxed to his full.

Afterwards I laid beside him, we were both panting. I wish I could have lost my virginity to him, but you can’t change the past. I put my head onto his chest. I could hear him breathing. Then I started to drift off to sleep.

It now has been two months since Jimmy has been living with me and three months that we’ve been together and things have never been better.

I woke up that morning and saw that Jimmy wasn’t laying next to me but I could smell something nice, the smells made me hungry. I went downstairs fully awake. I saw that Jimmy was cooking breakfast, he’s a fantastic cook but I don’t really like him doing all this for me sometimes. I mean I would like to do something for him, I sometimes feel helpless. I went up behind him and gave him a hug, he was nice and warm. I rested my head on him.

“Morning” I said while smiling. I wanted to remain hugging Jimmy a bit longer but Jimmy wanted to get on making breakfast.

“Come on, let me finish this”

“No I’m gunna finish it and I’m not taking no for an answer” he did as I said. I finished breakfast off, it wasn’t as nice as what Jimmy can do, but least I did something for him for a change.

Me and Jimmy were curled up on the couch, my head was on his shoulder and his arm was wrapped around me. I was so comfortable and I felt warm inside. I could fall asleep on him…well I’ve done that before but it was way to early in the day to go to sleep. When I was extremely comfortable there was a knock at the door. Grr someone had to do this didn’t they? I got up and answered the door and saw that it was Johnny and everyone else.

“Hi” I said giving him a hug, I’ve missed being in the presence of them because its been a few days since I’ve seen them. I gave the others a hug as well. When they saw Jimmy they gave him one of those manly hugs as I call them. I went and sat next to Jimmy, we all had smiles on our faces.

“Yeah”

A few hours passed, we were talking about random stuff and what has been happening over the past few days and planning when they’re going to have their next band practise.

“Yeah sure”

they both got up and headed for the kitchen. While they were talking Johnny was showing me his new dance moves, he looked like a little kid while showing me them and they made me giggle. He taught me some and then we were dancing together, Brain put some music on and we were all dancing. Jimmy and Matt came back, Jimmy took me and said “I can show you how I move” and then we were dancing together, he’s quite a mover I thought. Jimmy put on some slow music and we started dancing to it. This is the closet I’ve been to him. Everyone was sitting down by this point and watching me and Jimmy. I totally forgot about them being there. When the song finished everyone gave us a round of applause and I blushed.

We were all just chilling out and watching TV. It turned 6:00 and Jimmy got up while I was extremely comfortable and I was dosing off a bit.

“Come on Kala”

“Huh?”

“I’m taking you out”

“But what about the others?”

“They’re going to look after the place while we’re away”

“We’re away?”

“Stop asking questions and get in the bloody car”

“Ok but don’t I need to pack or summate?”

It has been a week since Jimmy has been living with me and it has been great. I’ve never been so close to anyone before in my life, all this time I’ve been living in loneliness until I met Jimmy and then everything turned around for the better. I’ve never experienced such happiness and love in my life and I enjoy it, I wish it could never end but everything has to end…but I don’t care I was living now and not thinking about the future, I rather take everything in my stride in life. During the past week I felt like my affection towards Jimmy has grown and we’ve become closer. Jimmy has become even more romantic. When I’m around him now I feel as though I’m some sort of goddess with the way he treats me. We still haven’t been intimate, I’m glad he isn’t rushing me into it because I don’t think I’m ready yet, I think I need to build I little but more trust towards him. I don’t know why I need to build more trust in him because I know he wont harm me in any way and he wont let anyone harm me. He also respects my feelings and choices which means a lot to me I also respect his. I think that’s why me and him get on so well and our relationship works. I don’t deserve Jimmy, he’s a guy in a million, not many people are lucky enough to have a guy like him…so why am I with him? And I don’t have feelings towards Johnny anymore.

My friendship with Val has become closer as well, she’s like a sister I’ve never had and is always there for me. She always takes away any doubts I have, and is the person to go to when I need some help in new clothes.

With the guys I’ve become closer to them as well. When I’m around them I’m always have a smile and I’m laughing loads.

I woke up with a bit of a hangover and found I was in my nightclothes. I don’t remember putting them on. I made my way downstairs and saw that Jimmy was asleep on the couch. He looked so sweet while asleep. I went and sat beside him and ran my fingers through his hair. He opened his eyes slowly and smiled at me, even in the morning he looks as hot as ever.

“Morning” I said smiling at him.

“Morning, how are you feeling?”

“Bit rough”

“How much did I drink?” I couldn’t remember a thing from last night.

“Urrm about a bottle of champagne”

“Oh crap, I bet I made a right idiot out of myself”

“Yeah you did but you weren’t the only one drunk”

“Oh phew” he got up and I saw he was only in his underpants. Gosh Jimmy has a really nice body I thought. His upper body was quite long and his legs looked quite muscular. He bent down to put his clothes back on. I got up and started to walk towards the kitchen to make some breakfast.

“Hey where do you think you’re going?”

“To make breakfast”

“Sorry Jimmy but I don’t want any, its making me feel sick”

“I’m going to go get a bath, might make me feel better”

“Yeah much”

“Um, do you want to move in with me?”

“Great, when do you want to move in?”

“Whenever you want”

“Urrm today if you want”

As I pulled up outside the restaurant I was feeling a bit nervous because I was a bit anxious about how the guys would react when we told them that me and Jimmy are together. I looked in the mirror saw that my lip gloss was smudged and looked to where Jimmy was and saw that half of it was on his lips.

“Come here” I said while reaching for a tissue out of my bag. I started to wipe the lip gloss from his lips, I couldn’t help but look into his eyes. I became lost in them, my heart started to beat a bit faster. We held eye contact for a few minuets and there was silence but the atmosphere in the car was screaming with the chemistry in the air. Jimmy put his hand onto my cheek and pressed his lips against mine, I pulled away I don’t know why though.

“Come on Jimmy save it for tonight” I said while giving him a wink then gave him a cheeky smile, he gave me one back.

We entered the restaurant and sat down. They left us seats so that me and Jimmy were sitting together, somehow I had the feeling that Val made sure that happened.

While we were waiting for our main course to arrive, Jimmy stood up and indicated that he wanted me to come with him. I did. When we were outside he lit up a cigarette.

“I think we should tell them now”

“Um yeah, if you want”

“Right when I’ve finished this we’ll tell them ok?”

“Ok but can you hurry up I’m getting cold”

“Do you want me to tell them or shall I?”

“Not bothered”

“Yeah”

“Drink up Kala”

“I don’t drink”

“Fine then just for you Brian” I grinned back at him. Unfortunately the champagne went straight to my head and I started to feel a bit drunk. This is why I don’t drink, it always goes straight to my head and I make a complete fool out of myself.

When the waitress came to serve, I noticed that Jimmy was eyeing her up. This made me sad, I looked down. From the corner of my eye I noticed that Matt nudged Jimmy. Jimmy saw that he’d upset me and put his arm round me.

It was 6:00 pm and I was getting ready. I had a nice long bath so I could relax instead of getting worried about what Jimmy would think of my dress and how I looked in it. The bath did wonders for me, I wasn’t as concerned. I started to straighten my hair, I looked in the mirror and saw that my hair looked really shiny, I liked this look. After I’d finished straightening my hair I played around with it to see if I should have an emo fringe or not have any of my hair covering my face, it would make a change if I had an emo fringe so I decided to go with the emo fringe. I put some hair spay, it made me cough a bit. Than it was time to put my dress on. I still felt special in it, then I put my shoes on. I looked in my full length mirror and saw I looked quite good, I couldn’t help but smile. By now 8:00 couldn’t come soon enough I wanted to hear what Jimmy thought of me. I started to look around for some lip gloss just to add a bit more glam. I really need to tidy this place up, it’s getting impossible to find things now I thought to myself. I heard a knock at the door. Aren’t they a bit early it’s only 7:00 pm? I opened the door and saw that it was Jimmy.

“Hi”

“Same here but with you” he looked dashing, I could smell his cologne it was nice, it seemed to have masked the smell of cigarettes. I pulled myself away from him (it was quite hard to do seen as I was liking how close I was to him).

“There, much better”

“Gosh, thanks Jimmy”

“No problem, anything for you” he gave me one of his sweetest smiles, I gave him a kiss on the lips to show my appreciation.

It turned 8:00 and there was knock at the door. I liked how they come on time, I’m not a girl who likes to be kept waiting.

They were a bit puzzled to find jimmy there already and I could have sworn I saw suspicion in Zacky's eyes. but luckily Val was there .. her being the angel she is.

Me and Val were looking around in this expensive dress shop. I felt a bit uncomfortable in there, I don’t wear dresses I feel as though I don’t have the figure for them even though everyone says I do. Most of the dresses were quite revealing. Val came to this low black dress, it seemed nice if you could carry it off and was into that type of thing. She looked for her size but when she got it out it seemed a bit small, then she held it up against me.

“What do you mean?” I tried to sound as though I didn’t know what she was on about.

“How could you tell?”

“The chemistry between you two”

“Oh, can the others tell?” I became a bit anxious.

“But I don’t look right in dresses”

“Fine” I had enough of people saying I had a good figure.

I went and changed into the dress, I felt uncomfortable in it. For some reason I felt naked, to much of me was showing. I looked in the mirror and saw that the dress was quite nice but the person that was in it, it didn’t do much justice for me, my ass looked twice as big and I didn’t like my legs. I made myself go out of the dressing room to show Val how I looked.

“Urrm it suits you but I think we can find better”

“Are you telling the truth or are you just being polite?”

“Right, lets see how you look in this” I tried it on and I felt more comfortable in this. Least it wasn’t as revelling and covered my legs a bit more. I went out to show Val and I was more confident in how I looked in this dress.

“Ha! You think so?”

“Very nice, I think those will go just nicely with your dress”

“Let me just try them on then” I put them on a walked around a bit, they were quite comfortable but I’m not used to wearing high heals. I bought them, least now I’ve got an outfit for tonight.

“Are you going to get anything to wear for Matt?”

“Hmm I think I’ll just get some make-up”

“Ok, how come you’re not going to buy any new clothes?”

Its been a month since I’ve know Jimmy and that lot and nearly a month since me and Jimmy have been going out. We still haven’t told the others about us two.

I woke up to my phone ringing. Who could be phoning me at this time in the morning?

“Hello?” I asked rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

“Hi, it’s Brian”

“Oh hi”

“Seen as it has been a month that you’ve known us, we thought you might like to come out to dinner with us”

“I’d love to”

“Great, we’ll pick you up at 8:00 tonight?”

“Ok” I glanced at my alarm clock and saw I had all day to get ready for Jimmy and Johnny. Gosh I still have feelings for Johnny. I went straight to my closet and looked through all my clothes. I had nothing suitable. The I remembered that Val had gave me her phone number. I went downstairs and looked all over for her number.

“Got ya” I said when I found her number. I dialled the number.

“Hi it’s Kala”

“Brian invited me to dinner and I have nothing to wear so I was wondering if you could come shopping with me to pick an outfit”

“Yeah sure”

“Thanks, should I come and pick you up about one?”

“Yeah, that’ll be fine”

I wanted to look especially nice for Jimmy, show that I could make an effort despise the compliments he gives me.

I started to wonder if I should ring my best mate Taylor and tell her about Jimmy and that Brian had asked to come with them to have a meal, but I thought it would be better if I didn’t tell her. What if she says something in front of the others that’ll make them guess that me and Jimmy are an item? Why do I keep having all of these doubts?

I didn’t really like thinking of her like that but I couldn’t help it. After taking a few minuets of thinking if I should tell her, I decided not to.

I looked at the clock and saw it was 12:40. I picked up my car keys from the coffee table.

I pulled up ay Val’s house, I was a tiny bit nervous I don’t know why though. I rang the doorbell, I turned round so my back was facing the door and the sun was shinning on my face.

“Hi, ready to go shopping?” I said with a smile.

“Yes, just let me get what I need”

“Ok”

By this point I wanted to go run and sit down in a corner and cry my eyes out. Flashbacks kept coming to me, I felt even more scared. I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

“No you didn’t scare me its just that…” I couldn’t bare to think of it let alone say it.

“Ok, a few years ago I got raped, that’s why I‘m scared. I haven’t told anyone till now” then I burst into tears. I started to remember me struggling and the guy, his face. I started to cry even more and shivered at the thought. Jimmy rushed up to me and held me tight, I didn’t feel secure…I did but loads of thoughts were rushing through my mind. I started to cry even more, tears were soaking Jimmy’s top. I couldn’t stop crying.

A sudden feeling of rage came over me. I started kicking, punching and screaming.

“Why didn’t they come and save me?”

“They heard me but they didn’t come”

“The bastards” Jimmy held me tight and didn’t let me go, I fell into his arms again and started crying.

“Shhh, he can’t harm you now”

After something like 15 minuets of me crying I started to feel faint I was calming down a lot. I knew that Jimmy would be there for me when ever I needed him, I knew he wouldn’t let anyone harm me. Soon I was just whimpering, he moved me towards the couch. When we were sat down he started to stroke my head. I felt so tired, it was extremely heard for me to get it off my chest, I’m used to keeping stuff like that locked up inside me. Soon after I fell asleep on Jimmy, he was still holding onto me. After a while I could feel Jimmy pick me up and carry me to my bed, he laid me on to the mattress and covered me up. I guess this night was quite rough for him to seen as I felt him lay beside me. I could feel his eyes looking at me and i could hear him breathing. 

It has been a week since me a Jimmy have been going out. It was 10:00 pm and I was in my pyjamas sitting down and watching some rubbish soaps. I heard a knock at the door, I wasn’t expecting anybody tonight.

“Its open” I shouted, I couldn’t be bothered to get up and answer the door, I was too comfy were I was sat.

“Hi gorgeous” I greeted him with a smile on my face. I was glad to see him. Even if I haven’t been around him for a few hours I start to miss him loads. We still haven’t told the others about us two being together. He saw me on the couch curled up with a mug of tea.

“Oh sorry I didn’t know I was disturbing you”

“Your ok and you’re not disturbing me” I noticed that he had something behind his back.

“What’s that behind your back?”

“Just a bottle of wine, I thought we could spend the rest of the evening together”

“Awww that’s very sweet of you Jimmy” he’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met and you haven’t heard some of the stuff he says or does and I mean the romantic type of stuff.

“Well let’s get this bottle open and we can relax. What do you say to that?”

“Yup that’s fine by me”

“The bottle opener is in the drawer in the kitchen and the glasses are in the cupboard over the sink”

“Right well give me a minuet and I’ll be back”

“Ok”

He came back with the glasses in one hand and the bottle in the other, he sat himself right next to me so there wasn’t an inch between us, and I felt even more comfy when he was next to me. I still couldn’t believe that I was going out with him. He poured me a glass, I didn’t really like wine but it was nice of him to think of the idea. When I tasted it I could tell that he’d paid a lot for it and to my amazement I liked it, I must like the expensive type of wine.

“Yeah, I was getting bored of this”

The movie was about three quarters of the way through. I wasn’t really hooked on the film but I had the manners not to show it. I had my head cocked to one side and my hair wrapped around my neck so that on side of my neck was showing, it was the side nearest to Jimmy. Then I felt Jimmy nibbling the side of my neck. WHAT?!? I’m not ready to be intimate with him. We’ve only been going out for a week. I couldn’t help but let out a little groan of pleasure.

“No Jimmy, I’m not ready this yet” I started to pull away.

After a few minutes of me and Jimmy not moving, Jimmy turned me so I was facing him. Before I knew what was happening his lips crashed against mine, his lips were even softer than before. My hand went up to his cheek, which was so soft. Then his tongue pressed against my lips, I opened my mouth to let his tongue slip inside my mouth. I could tell that he has had a lot of experience in this department. By this point my heart was pounding, I now know who I truly loved. We both pulled away at the same time. I felt like I was…actually words cant describe what I was feeling during and after the kiss.

“No don’t be sorry, I haven’t been able to get you out of my head until I first met you” I said while rubbing his arm, to make him not feel as awkward. I felt good that I actually told him my feelings towards him and I felt great knowing he felt the same way as me.

“So I guess that means you’ll go out with me?”

“Yeah it does” in the middle of my body I felt a warm glow, it was a extremely nice feeling.

“Umm ok” this made me feel a bit sad.