October 29, 2007

To End The Rapture

<My POV>

As the tall handsome guy placed me on his couch I couldn’t help but look into his eyes. They were a dazzling blue, they seemed to sparkle in the light. I instantly became lost in them. I didn’t care that there was a deep gash in my knee and it hurt.

“Well lets get your knee cleaned out” The man said smiling at me. I smiled back at him, his smile made me feel some sort of affection towards him and I’ve only known him for a few minuets. He walked of and came back with a bowl of warm water, a cloth and a bandage.

He placed the bowl and bandage on the floor. He dipped the cloth in the water and gently began to dap the cloth over my wound. It began to sting but not a lot.

“Ah you seem to have some glass in your wound”

“Oh” I looked down at my knee. I shouldn’t have done that because I became a bit dizzy because of the blood, I looked away straight away. The guy went upstairs and came back down with a pair of tweezers.

“Just hold still for a sec and I’ll get the glass out”

“Erm ok” He started to take the glass out. It started to hurt a lot and I winced a bit.

“You ok?” He asked.

“Yeah just stings”

“Awww” He leaned forward and kissed just above my knee.

“Kisses always make everything better” He smiled at me. I giggled. Moments later he got the glass out and cleaned my knee then dressed it.

“Thank you” I smiled at him.

“No problem love” I got up and started to limp towards his front door.

“Where do you think your going?” He asked walking up to me.

“Err I don’t want to over stay my welcome”

“You can stay as long as you want”

<Revs POV>

I didn’t want her to leave, she seemed awesome even though I’ve only known her a couple of minuets and I don’t even know her name. I guided her back to the couch and sat next to her.

“Sorry you must think I’m terribly rude”

“For what?” She asked confused.

“For not telling you my name, it’s Jimmy but I prefer to be called Rev”

“Oh cool names, I’m Charlotte. Why do like to be called Rev?” She said this with a smile on her face.

“Oh it’s my stage name, well it was my nickname before I was with the band I’m in”

“Oh that’s cool, what’s your band’s name?”

“Avenged Sevenfold”

“Great name, what position do you play?”

“Drums”

“Cool” I noticed that she seemed to be fiddling with her wrist bands a lot but I didn’t want to ask why because that would seem rude. I hoped that she wasn’t taken because I was warming to her a lot. I didn’t care that I was supposed to be at band practise, they could wait.

“So tell me about yourself?”

“There isn’t much to tell” She said looking down.

“There’s got to be, you seem interesting”

“Really?” She said with a weird look on her face, I nodded.

“Well I’m a complete loner, write a lot of songs and some other stuff” I couldn’t believe that she said that she was a loner. I looked down mindlessly and saw that her bands round her wrists had slipped down and I saw that there was numerous cuts and scars on them. I became worried about her. I wanted to pretend that I didn’t see anything but I just couldn’t. I reached out for her wrists.

“Why?” I asked there was a distinct worry in my voice.

<End of POV>

<My POV>

I took my hands away from his as soon as he asked and looked away. I was ashamed.

“Please tell me” He pleaded with me.

“It isn’t any of your business” I snapped at him, I didn’t mean to but I don’t like it when people stick their nose in my business.

“I’m sorry love” He looked away and seemed to look shocked at the manner at which I talked to him in.

“Look I’m sorry mate, I didn’t mean to” I said while grabbing his hand to try and say sorry to him.

“No it’s my fault, I shouldn’t have asked it’s just I care to much” For some reason I did want to tell him. He has one of those faces that you could just look at and know that you could tell him anything and he would help you out. I smiled when he said that he cares to much, I found it really sweet.

“And I shouldn’t have snapped at you. I didn’t tell you I have an anger problem” He smiled at me, I felt as though I was going to melt.

“So are you going to tell me why or not?”

“Fine” I took a breath in. “I can’t take a lot of things at the moment and I can’t cope” I don’t know why but I started to cry. I put his arms round me and pulled me into his chest. I cried on him. A minuet passed and I stopped crying.

“Sorry about that, I don’t know what came over me” I said wiping the tears away.

“It’s ok” He smiled at me.

A few hours passes of us talking, I took a quick glance at Rev’s watch and saw the time.

“I-I should go now”

“Why what time is it”

“Time I should go” I became scared because I was late. I started to become scared because I knew who would be waiting for me when I arrived home.

“What’s wrong?”

“N-nothing” I tried to hide my upset but I wasn’t very good at it.

“There is please tell me” I looked up at him and I his face just looked so adorable that I just couldn’t say no.

“Fine…my boyfriend abuses me” I lifted my top up a bit to show numerous cuts and bruises. Rev had a look of worry and shock on his face.

“And some of the scars on my wrists are from when he handcuffs me and rapes me” Now Rev looked worried, horrified and angry.

<Rev’s POV>

When she told me what her boyfriend, well so called boyfriend does to her, I couldn’t believe it. Why would someone want to hurt her? I felt angry, worried, upset and extremely concerned about her.

“He must be a monster” I said with disgust, I couldn’t get my head round why a person in all their heart would want to harm her. She was awesome, she nodded to show that see agreed with me.

“Your going to stay with me” I didn’t want her to suffer anymore because of this bastard. I think I was starting to fall in love with her.

“N-no I can’t”

“Yes you can” I smiled at her. She shook her head.

“Why cant you?”

“He’ll hunt me down and you and I don’t want you to get hurt because of me”

“You haven’t seen me in a fight love” I wasn’t going to take no for an answer. She looked scared and confused, I thought she was going to start to cry because of her fear towards this man.

“Why are you being so nice to me?” It was obvious that she wasn’t used to being treated with respect and how she should be treated. I didn’t want to tell her the main reason in case I get rejected. I’m scared of being rejected.

“Because you’re a great person and you deserve better than this” She gave me a small smile I couldn’t help but smile back.

“So where bouts do you live?”

“A block away”

“Ok, come on” I said while heading for my front door and picking up the car keys.

“Why?”

“We’re going to pay for boyfriend a little visit” Just saying something to do with this guy made my blood boil.

“No” She grabbed hold of my hand and tried to stop me from going any further.

<My POV>

I didn’t want Rev having anything to do with him. More than anything I didn’t want him to get hurt.

“Why shouldn’t we?” He got me by that question, I didn’t want to see him suffer and get payback from all the things he has done to me.

“Because…”

“Exactly, you want to get him back for everything don’t you?”

“Yeah”

“Then what are you waiting for?” He hovered by the door.

“I dunno, but you don’t know what he’s like.”

“And he doesn’t know what I’m like” He placed his hand over the door handle. I made my mind up.

“Fine then” I was scared and worried for Rev. I started to have feelings towards him. He has been the only person that has treated me nicely and how I want to be treated.

As were in his car on the way to mine I became even more scared and nervous by the second for Rev. I kept fiddling with my wrist bands because of it all. Rev looked over at me and smiled

“There’s nothing to be scared of trust me”

“But…” He cut me off.

“If he lays a finger on you I’ll kill him ok?”

“Ok” I liked it that he did care about me but it seemed to be in his nature.

<Rev’s POV>

I was getting more angry about this guy, I really wanted to get him back even though I don’t know him. I think it has something to do with it being in my nature and I was falling on love with her. I looked over at her again and she seemed to be worse than what she was a few seconds ago.

“You’ll be safe with me” She looked at me and gave me a weak smile.

 

We arrived at hers a few minuets later. I was ready to face him and do what ever it took to make sure that Charlotte was safe. I got out of the car and so did Charlotte. She looked as though she was going to back out of the idea.
“Don’t worry, I’ll be right behind you” She walked round to where I was. I smiled to reassure her. She headed for her front door. I was right behind to make sure nothing happened to her.

<My POV>

I was near the front door and I was extremely scared. If Rev wasn’t behind me I would have been worse, I felt safe around him. I knew that he wasn’t going to let anything happen to me but I didn’t want him to get hurt because of him seen as my boyfriend is very violent. I entered closely followed by Rev. I put the keys on the rack.

“Where’ve you been?” A voice from the living room called.

“Jogging, sorry I’m late I lost track of time” I moved closer to Rev and looked up at him, he gave me a reassuring smile.

“Well you better be” He came into the hallway and when he saw Rev he became confused and angry.

“Who’s this?”

“R-Rev” Rev placed his hand on my shoulder to show that he was going to protect me and he stepped up next to me.

“What did I tell you about bringing people back home?”

“Not to” I mumbled. He started to walk up to me, I backed away. Rev stepped in front of me.

“If you lay a fucking finger on her I’ll beat the living shit out of you” He still walked towards me. Rev stopped him but Steve kept trying to get to me.

“You go on upstairs and get your things” Rev said taking a quick glance back at me. I was frozen to the spot. Rev’s expression softened to show that he wasn’t going to allow anything happen to me. I headed for the stairs. When I was half way up the stairs Steve came out with “If you take another step I‘m going to fucking kill you” I stopped and looked at Rev as if to tell him I couldn’t do it.

“Shut the fuck up” Rev glared at him. Steve spat in his face, Rev punched him. Then they started fighting, I ran upstairs to my room and locked it, I knew that Rev was going to get hurt and I really didn’t want that to happen seen as I was falling in love with him. I started packing my things well just throwing them into a bag because I wanted to leave as soon as possible. Rev and Steve were so loud that I could hear them perfectly clear. I finished packing but they were still fighting so I didn’t want to go down. After a few minuets I heard them coming up the stairs.

<Rev’s POV>

Steve started up the stairs, I went after him, I knew he was heading towards Charlotte. I reached for him but he was to quick, I raced up the stairs and grabbed hold of him and pulled him to the floor. I was going to make sure I knocked him out before me and Charlotte left. After that I dragged him to his feet and pinned him against the wall and punched him. He spat blood right in my eyes. They stung. I stumbled backwards while wiping the blood away. Steve took his chance to threw a swings at me, this took me by surprise. When he did I ended up on the floor but I hit my head against the banister and I blacked out.

<My POV>

I heard something bang, I jumped. A few seconds later I heard someone trying to force the door open.

“Open the door you fucking bitch” I was frozen to the floor, I scrambled to the corner. Steve forced the door open and came over to me. I was terrified. A few tears rolled down my cheeks.

“REV” I screamed through tears. But he didn’t come, Steve was coming closer to me and he had an grin on his face that scared me a lot more than normal. I knew that Steve had knocked Rev out and that was why he didn’t come. That was probably what the bang was. Steve was about to slap me when Rev pulled him away from me. He pinned him up against the wall and laid into him. After a bit he grabbed him by the scruff of his neck and banged him against the wall.

“You son of a fucking bitch” Rev shouted and gave him one clean punch in the face. Steve was knocked out. Rev dropped him to the floor. He had a bust lip. He came over to me, I was frozen where I was.

“It’s over now” He said calmly and put his arm round me. He pulled me closer to me. I put my head on his chest and started to cry.

“Shhh it’s over now he’s never going to hurt you again” He held me close to him until I stopped crying. When I did he wiped my tears away.

We made our back to Rev’s. He put my things in the spare room and told me to treat the place like it was my own.

I went into the kitchen and got my self a drink of orange juice. As I was putting the carton back in the fridge I knocked the glass over. Rev came into the kitchen. I don’t know why but I became scared, I knew that Rev wasn’t going to hurt me but I couldn’t help it.

“I-I’m sorry I didn’t mean to” My voice was shaky.

“It’s ok” He came up to me. I backed away shaking my head until I came up to the counter. Rev kept coming towards me.

“I’m not going to hurt you I promise”

<Rev’s POV>

As I saw her cowering it made my heart sink. I couldn’t bare. She knew that I wasn’t going to harm her but she just couldn’t help but think of it. Steve must have fucked her up pretty bad for her to act like this. I started to pick up the glass and placed it into the bin then cleaned up the juice. I got her another glass and filled it. As I was doing so she came up to me and gave me a hug and kept hugging me. I put my arms round her and kissed the top of her head.

For a few hours past of us on the couch just watching TV. Charlotte yawned, it was understandable because it would have been a long day for her.

“Go to bed if you want”

“Do you mind?”

“No” She got up and made her way upstairs.

 

<My POV>

I got ready for bed and laid in the bed. I couldn’t help but think about Rev. He must have to be an angel because there is no way a person can be like him. I tried to get to sleep but I couldn’t. After about something like ten minuets Rev came up. He came into my room and smiled, I smiled back.

“Night”

“Night”

“Do you want me to close the door for you?”

“Please” He gave me one last smile and closed the door.

I still couldn’t get off to sleep. For some reason I wanted to be in the same room as Rev. I made my way to him room. I knocked on the door and entered. He looked up and smiled, he had a pad in front of him and was just in his boxers.

“Do you mind if I sleep with you tonight?”

“No” He smiled. He moved some of the pillows over and moved to one side of the bed. I climbed in. and yet again I still couldn’t get off to sleep. I sat up and looked at what Rev was doing, he was writing a song. I rested my head on him and read what he put. He seemed very talented at this. I felt him put his arm round me and pull me closer to him. I watched him write for a while. My eyelids became heavy, I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

<Rev’s POV>

I noticed that Charlotte had fallen asleep on me, I smiled to myself. I put my pad, pen and glasses on the side table and laid her on the bed. She turned round. I covered her up and got under the covers. I turned the lamp off and laid down then I draped my arm over her and went to sleep.

 

Joelle i hope your happy now lol. sorry if its boring but this is short for me lol. this is a one of thing. enjoy =)


Posted on 10/29/2007 3:59 PM Comments (10)

October 18, 2007

Chapter On Of Turn The Other Way

This IS My New FanFic I Hope You All Enjoy =)

 

<My POV>

I was at a local club with my mates Laura and Joelle. We were just hanging out. Me and Laura were downing the Jack Daniels’s to be honest I was a tiny but drunk, but Joelle was just drinking soda. After a while were getting a bit tired and I had a bit to much to drink. We were about to leave when I saw that A7X came in. Both mine and Laura’s mouths dropped at the same time.

I couldn’t help but admire Rev. He just looked so perfect, he was all in proportion. As he walked in it looked like he was walking in slow motion. I could tell that Laura was eyeing up Zacky. I looked to where Joelle was, I saw that she couldn’t keep her eyes off of Syn.

“I see you have a crush on Synny” I teased Joelle.

“Huh? Yeah.” For some reason I became I but school girlish.

<End of POV>

<Laura’s POV>

I couldn’t believe that Zacky had just walked in. As soon as he did the whole place seemed to have become brighter. He looked as amazing as ever. I wanted to go up to him and start a convocation with him but I was to shy and I knew that I would come out with the wrong thing. I just became lost in my own little world. I thought that it was a dream but I knew it wasn’t. it was just that the guy that I’ve always wanted to meet had just come into a bar that I was in and there wasn’t loads of security guards around him.

<End of POV>

<Joelle’s POV>

The band that Charlotte and Laura absolute love had just walked in. I looked at then and saw that they were in a world of their own, but there was no point in trying to snap them out of it because I would be totally ignored. I glanced at them the boys. My eyes lingered on one of the guitarists. To be honest both of the guitarists were extremely talented. He was quite tall but not as tall as The Rev. He had a leather hat on with a white bandana with black decoration underneath. I didn’t really see the point in it but I guess it had something to do with style. He had long, black, styled hair. He was also muscular but didn’t have muscles as big as the lead singer which was Matt…I think. He was very handsome.

“I see you have a crush on Synny” Charlotte teased me. I quite liked his stage name it was unusual. It took me a few seconds to reply because I was still admiring him.

“Huh? Yeah” I still followed him with my eyes as he sat down with the rest of the band. I couldn’t believe I have a crush on Syn because he isn’t really my type.


Posted on 10/18/2007 2:28 PM Comments (14)

Mezmer Lyrics By Pinkly Smooth - Posted For You Joelle =)

Today I saw my brother
Into hell, for evermore
Choice there was no other
I’m sad to say, it’s not the last time
I look into your body
Fill you up with enemies
It’s wave, oh, for the next life
I don’t know if I alone want you

She says what about my story time
Afraid, a little side of it is under spy
Some will eventually go out and die.
I think he really wants to die.
I don’t really want to die
I think he really swallowed

Raise it up to the lord,
If I die tomorrow, try to pull on me
Come to me with nothing
Watch you bleed, forever more

Soon he runs into his time, holding on

Choices on my own tongue
I’m strong enough, such I can deem, of
There is so long here.
It’s not enough for the last time

I look into your body,
Fill you up with enemies,
It’s wave oh for the next life
I don’t know if I alone want you.

Yeah

Saket has some better things to hug you by my time
I went for the study of the evil souls and I wish they replied
Well, I sat down on your stone and I talked with you for a while
And did you think that it was worth it

It’s burnin’ on its’ head
And I won’t believe this even happens here
I won’t rest until you bloody
Sanest, darn this, I can’t get you out of sight

You’re fucking fault

Sick for ya, sign of amaze
Sick for ya, you’ll be numbing for days
For the way, these mother fuckers never fail.

Sick for ya
So, sick for ya

Posted on 10/18/2007 2:04 PM Comments (0)

October 16, 2007

Chapter thirty-eight of warmness of the soul

It’s been a week after Matt’s birthday. Me and Jimmy have been having a few arguments. He has been the one who has been starting them. He keeps acussing me of seeing some else, well I am but he can’t know because that would just be stupid. Recently he’s been getting on my nerves, I’ve never thought that would happen and I’ve been storming out before I really did loose my temper. I have a bit of an anger problem and sometimes it doesn’t do much for me when Matt really gets on my nerves because he has a short temper so it really isn’t a good idea to get on his wick but most of the time Jimmy has cooled me down before something happened. I feel that me and Jimmy have drifted apart a bit, I know that it’s down to me having an affair with Johnny but I do love Johnny and Jimmy. I’ve been feeling really guilty about the whole matter and was seriously contemplating on wether I should dump Johnny because I love Jimmy a lot more and makes me feel so special and as though I am somebody and he needs me, with Johnny I do feel that but not the intensity that I feel towards Jimmy.

I woke up to find that Jimmy was still asleep, I turned on my side so I face facing him. I could tell that he was in a light sleep. I started to run my fingers through his hair. I leaned forward and pecked his lips, he started to awaken. A smile started to spred across his face as he opened his eyes. I wrapped his arms round my waist and pulled me closer to him and pressed his lips against mine, he rolled me onto my back and pressed his tounge against my lips. I let his tounge slip inside. I caressed his back gently while we were making out. I pushed him off and cheekily grinned at him. I got up.

“Race ya” Then I headed out of the bedroom door.

“Hey! Wait up” Jimmy said while jumping out of bed. By the time he reached me I was near the stairs. I slid down the banister while Jimmy ran down the stairs.

“Heehee you’ll never catch me” I said while giggling. He reached the bottom of the stairs before I did and pulled a face. I meet him at the bottom just when he was going to step one foot ahead. When I reached the kitchen Jimmy came up behind me and lifted me off my feet, I looked to face him and saw he had a grin on his face. He carried me over to the kitchen table and laid me down. He lifted my top up and took it off. He kissed a line down my body. To be perfectly honest I wasn’t in the mood…well not after last night with him. When he came back up he started to nibble my neck, I whispered in his ear “I’m sorry baby” I ran my hand down his back.

“For what?” He stopped nibbling my neck.

“For being such a bitch over the last couple of days”

“Well I’ve been a bastard” He gave me a peck on the lips and started to rub against me quite hard but it was comfortable. I let out a moan but from the throat.

“Not now, maybe later”

“Why?” He still carried on.

“You tired me out last night” We pulled an all nighter and I was still worn out because of it, I didn’t know how Jimmy would want more.

“Oh” He said while getting off of me. He lifted me up and spun me around then placed me on the floor.

When I was half way through making breakfast for us both I felt Jimmy’s arms wrap round me. He swayed me side to side gently. He rested his chin on my shoulder. Then he gave me a peck on the cheek. We remained in the position that we were in for a while. I unwrapped his hands from around me so I could finish off breakfast. Jimmy made his way to the living room. I finished making breakfast well it was more of a lunch because it was nearing 12.

A few hours past of me and Jimmy being curled up on the couch, I love these types of days when you just sit around and do nothing. Jimmy was reading a book and I was laying on his lap watching TV. Jimmy was wearing his glasses, he looked very intelligent with them on. He had his hand draped around me and on occasion he would rub his thumb on my arm. I was really warm and comfortable, I also felt extremely secure with him. I was thinking about what would be the kindest way to break up with Johnny. Loads of ways were rushing through my head but none of them seemed right. I decided to give up on the idea for a while. I was so comfortable that I started to doze off. The next thing I knew was that I had drifted off and Jimmy was gently shaking my shoulder.

“Come on Kala” I heard him say as I was coming round. I lifted up my head but I lifted it up to quickly so I went all dizzy, I put my head back on Jimmy’s lap for a few seconds then I sat up.

“Well I’ve got to see a man about a drum kit” He said while getting up.

“Ok” I said smiling at him.

“Love you”
“Love you more” I grinned. He chuckled and gave me a peck on the forehead. He collected the car keys and off he went.

After 15 minuets of Jimmy being out I called Johnny for him to come over. Within 10 minuets he came. I was nervous because I didn’t know how he would react. He came in looking like a kid who has just been given some candy. I instantly started to feel bad about the whole thing. I didn’t want him to feel bad with him being in the mood that he was in. He came up to me and gave me a kiss on the lips as he was doing so he sneaked his hand up my top. I pushed him away and looked him straight in the eyes.

“we need to talk” After I said that his face seemed to drop. He sat down next to me. I tried to talk but it felt like there was a lump in my throat. My head was saying ‘Yes tell him’ but my heart was saying the opposite. I dropped my gaze.

“What is it love?” He said while grabbing hold of my hand.

“We need to talk”
“About what?”
“Us”
“Why?” I looked up at him, he looked shocked and confused.

“You know I’ll love you forever, no matter what”

“Yeah but what do you want to tell me?” I looked him straight in the eyes and I saw the pain that I would cause him if I did tell him.

“It doesn’t matter” I said with a smile.

“Ok” He looked a little confused. I leaned forward and pecked him on the lips. He did the same, he ran his hand up and down my back. When he came to my bra he slowed down the pace of which his hand was running up and down my back. He gently pushed me onto my back and climbed on top of me.

“The couch is a bit to small” I grinned cheekily at him at him.

“Yeah” He got off of me and grabbed my hand and helped me to my feet, then he picked me up bridal style and headed for the stairs.

“I’m to heavy for you” I giggled.

“I may be short but I’m not weak”

When we got to the bedroom he placed me on the bed. As he was undoing his pant he looked a bit unsure.

“What’s wrong?”

“I-I’m a virgin”

“We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to” I would have hated it if he thought that he did have to have sex when he didn’t want to.

“I do, you’ve got to loose your virginity sometime. I’m just glad I’m loosing it to you” He gave me a smile, I smiled back. I sat up and took off my top and bra and threw them on the floor. Johnny just had his underpants on. I beckoned him over, he did. I laid him on the bed and began to kiss a line down his body as I was doing so I slid his boxers off. I kissed down there a few times and placed my mouth around his penis. I ran my tongue round his penis. He moaned. I started to give him a blow job. I looked up at him and saw that he was making faces showing pleasure. I went a bit harder. After I while semen came into my mouth. I swallowed, I started to go back up north. Johnny rolled me over so he was on top. He started to undo my jeans. As he was doing so I reached into the side cabinet and pulled out a condom.

“We can’t forget this” I smiled at him. He took it from me and put it on. I kicked my jeans and thong onto the floor. I spread my legs. He placed his hands on the inside of my thighs and pushed my legs a little wider. I started to tingle. His hands were nice and warm. Just when he was about to enter me he looked unsure again.

“If you don’t want to carry on, we don’t have to. I’m not forcing you”

“No I want to” He lowered himself and entered me. I felt a little bit of pain but as he moved around inside me the pain went. He wasn’t as rough as Jimmy which I found more satisfying and pleasurable. After about 15 minuets I climaxed. I arched my back, dug my nails into his back and screamed his name.

“Oh god Kala” He moaned. From his facial expression I could tell that he had climaxed to his full. He collapsed at the side of me panting. I put my arm round him.

“Love you”

“Love you to” I said while panting. I gave him a quick peck on the nose. I turned my head so I was facing the doorway and saw that Jimmy was standing there. I was shocked. He looked very pained, upset and angry.

“H-how long have you been there?” At this point Johnny was facing Jimmy. It was a few seconds before he replied. “Long enough” I felt extremely bad, I got up and started to get dressed so did Johnny. I kept one eye on Jimmy just in case he did something. He looked as though he was fighting back tears. When me and Johnny were dressed I took my eyes off of Jimmy for one second and when I had them back on him he had grabbed hold of Johnny’s collar and punched him.

“You fucking mother fucking cunt of a son of a bitch” He screamed at him. Then he punched Johnny again. Johnny fell to the floor. I was stunned and couldn’t move

“Come on take it like a man” He said with a kick at Johnny. I managed to move forward and grabbed Jimmy’s hand.

“Quit it” I screamed but he took no notice of me. Then I stood between him and Johnny. I saw that Jimmy’s fist was clenched.

“Go on then hit me” I looked him straight in the eyes and didn’t lower my gaze. A few seconds went by and he backed down. Now he looked at me through eyes full of pain and sorrow.

“Why?” I could tell it was hard for him to say anything. I shrugged.

“What does he have that I don’t?” I didn’t answer. Jimmy turned round and headed for the door.

“No please Jimmy don’t go. We can work it out” He didn’t slow his pace down but quickened it. I could hear Johnny’s footsteps behind me. Jimmy grabbed hold of the car keys and got in his car. By this point tears were streaming down my eyes and said I was sorry and begged for him to stay over and over again. He didn’t take any notice of me and backed out of the drive. I followed him as he drove up the street, I ran after the car and kept shouting ’Please Jimmy, give me another chance’ through loads of tears. When I knew I couldn’t follow him anymore I stopped where I was and placed my head in my hands and cried hard. Johnny put his arm round me, I placed my face into the side of his shoulder and cried even more. I started to slide down , Johnny helped me down and held me tight. I couldn’t stop crying. I knew I had just made a big mistake in my life. I wanted to go back in time so I would never have had an affair. I knew I just lost the best thing in my life.

 

                                 

                  The End


Posted on 10/16/2007 4:42 PM Comments (19)

October 5, 2007

Chapter thirty-seven of warmness of the soul

It’s still Matt’s birthday and we were all at this club where they all used to go when they were younger. It was quite dingy place. There was a Jack Daniel’s pool table which I loved. Brian went to get the rounds in and Matt was still opening his presents . He had a really big grin on his face of which you could see his dimples. For a scary looking man he had a friendly smile. I handed him mine, I wasn’t sure if it was the right size but if it’s a bit tight on him but it wouldn’t really matter because everything’s a bit tight on him. He unwrapped the gift. What I got him was a tank top with a matching hat and bandana.

“Wow thanks Kala” He said with a grin.

“No Problem” He gave me a hug and a peck on the cheek to show his apparition. Brian came back with a load of beers, shots of some kind and two glasses of white wine for me and Val. I knew that the shots were to toast Matt. We all took a glass and toasted. The shot was loaded with loads of spirits. It hit me quite hard.

“Bloody hell” The others laughed with me finding the shot to strong.

We were all drinking, fooling around and other stuff. In the club we were the loudest out of everyone put together who was in the club at the time, but amazingly we didn’t get told to quieten down or get asked to leave. I was having a game of pool with Zacky. I was at a bit of an advantage because Zacky was sort of drunk, but I was still rubbish at playing pool. After a while I felt someones hand slip down below. I looked down at the mans hand and saw it was Jimmy’s. I turned round to face him.

“God you get more beautiful every time I see you” He grinned.

“So do you” I grinned back at him, and Johnny I thought. He gently grabbed hold of my leg and brought it it up to his waist and did the same with my other leg. He laid me down on the pool table as he did he moved some of the snooker balls. He started to rub against me. I let out a moan, I completely forgot about everyone else being there. Jimmy started to peck my lips, I arched my back a little and slided my hands up from his back to around his neck and pulled him closer to me. I turned my neck to the side and he started to suck my neck, I let out another moan. I looked at Johnny and saw he looked a little sad. I giggled and tried to push jimmy off me but he was to turned on to take the hint.

“Come on not here” I whispered in his ear, I acted as though I just came to my sences of where we were.

“Awww come on” He pleaded with me.

“No not here” I giggled and pushed his shoulders, this time he got the hint and got off me. I jumped down and kissed Jimmy. After I did so I looked in the direction of Val and she had a look of suspision on her face. I looked away after a few seconds. She made her way to the exit, as she did she told me to follow her. I did. When we were outside we stood there in silence for a while.

“So is there any problems going on between you and Jimmy?”

“I don’t get what you mean”
“Well you two have been acting differently ever since that run in with your ex…well more you than Jimmy”

“I Haven’t, it’s just that I’ve had a lot of things on my mind”
“Like?”

“Stuff” I couldn’t think of an excuse.

“Ok but I really do care for the well being of these guys even though they can be pricks at times”

“Ok” I walked off back inside, Val followed a few seconds later. I think she was contemplating wether I was telling the truth or not. When I went back over to the guys they were having some kind of drinking competition all apart from Jimmy which was very unusual. He looked a little pissed off and as though he was working something out.

“What’s up baby?”

“You” I was confused by his answer.

“What do you mean?”

“Your not acting like your normal self and you never want to do it”

“So sometimes I’m just not in the mood”

“For a few months?” He questioned me.

“Love isn’t always about sex” I could tell I struck a nerve and proved him worng but he didn’t say anything. The others were looking at us, they seemed shocked at us acting like this. I felt embarrassed and angry. I was feeling angry because I didn’t like the tone he was speaking to me in. I went outside to cool down, after a few minuets Johnny followed me. He pushed took me round to the back of the club and and pushed me up against the brick wall and started to make out with me.


Posted on 10/05/2007 3:04 PM Comments (6)

October 1, 2007

Chapter thirty-six of warmness on the soul

Today is the day of Matt’s birthday. And with it being one of the boys birthdays the bash would be more extravagant than normal. Jimmy had been planning what to do seen as him and Matt were nearly as bad as each other. He wouldn’t let me in on what we were going to do because he wanted it to be a complete surprise.

I’ve still been seeing Johnny, but every time we wanted to have some time together we always have to make up an excuse, I don’t know if they’re believable but I haven’t been questioned yet. If we were at each others houses I found it exciting because you never knew when you were going to be caught. I think I got a bit of kick out of the whole danger thing. My relationship with Johnny isn’t intimate. I’m not really sure why, but Johnny hasn’t been forcing me into anything. I appreciate that a lot, I don’t know if he doesn’t mind but he hasn’t said anything.

Jimmy was upstairs on the computer, putting some lyrics together. He’s amazing at making songs. You can really tell that he puts his full amount of effort in them and his is an natural at writing them. He also puts his heart onto them.

I was in the living room on the phone to Johnny. We were having one of those stupid argements about who loves who the most. I know it’s a bit school girlish but you have those types of moments.

“Haha I love you more coz I’ve loved you ever since I laid eyes on you” I giggled.

“Yeah but I didn’t stop loving you” Johnny came back at me with.

“I’m pretty sure I didn’t stop loving you”

“Why’s that?”

“Coz I always felt different when I was around you, and I guess I didn’t really pick up on it because I was with Jimmy”

“Ok, fine then you win” Johnny sais with a fake sigh.

“Yey. Bye baby. Love you”

“Love you to” He chuckled then he hung up. I put the phone on the coffee table and made my way upstairs to see how far Jimmy had got with his song.

“So how’s your sonf coming along”

“Just fine” He swivelled round on the chair to face me and smiled. Whenever he smiles at me I still feel as though I’m going to melt. I rested against the desk and started to read what he put. When I read about half way of the song, I felty Jimmy wrap his arms round me and pull me towards him. I giggled. When I was sat in his lap I placed my head onto his chest. He placed his chin on top of my head and kissed the top of my head. He swivelled the chair gently side to side. After a while of us sitting there in complete silence, I looked up at him and kissed him on the lips.

“Love you” Jimmy said as he pulled away.

“Love you to” For some reason I couldn’t help think of Johnny.


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